Friday, December 21, 2007

white christmas

i love christmas alot..
i jz love it even im not a christian..
i love the environment, the feeling, jz everything..
christmas is the most important date after my birthday..
christmas is jz so sweet, loving, n warm..
even there is no snow in m'sia..
i stil enjoy celebrating it..
on christmas eve, mostly ppl wil gather a home n hv their dinner together..
so warm tat feeling..
or mayb sum wil gather wit their frenz n do the count down..
the feeling being wt frenz jz cant descride lik tat le..
hw to tell christmas is tat important in my life le??
christmas gv me hope n dream..
away from the reality world for a moment..
forgeting everything i nd to bear on..
^^ the most happiest christmas for all this 20 years been..
last year christmas was the most happinest..
the 1st time i went out count down wt frenz..
playing n dancing in the crowd wit many ppl..
its so fun n harmony..
btw i do get secure when christmas come..
cz i believe santa noe wat i hv did for all this year..
n he noe wat to do to me..
even i noe he wont appear or is not real..
but he is lik a grandpa telling me everything is fine gal..
he make me miss my grandparent alot..
santa gv me a fairy tales dream..
he is a kind n gentle man..
i hv a fren say im lik a child..
do i reli lik a child??
hwever wats wrong being a child wt hope n happiness le..
nth de ma..
so once a while act lik a small naive child waiting santa n her christmas tree..
isnt it so sweet n wonderful..
hope i can see white christmas..
^^

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

2007

since wat happened on 2nd of dec..
i din wrote any blog til the last one "tears"
cz i donnoe hw to write it out..
everything is veli complicated , hard to descride..
one by one its come..nvr break..
hvn settled any yet..
the incident on 2nd of dec,
pulling me down to hell..thing hvn cover up yet..
time needed to cover it..but hw long it will..
no1 could tell me even myself cant get the answer..
prob r throwing to me one by one..
veli annoying..tats wat a growing human should face..
then could i avoid it n later onli pass to me..
christmas is coming..
i lov christmas cz its so warm..
but this year is kind of change le..
everything is changing..
4 all this while i hv been say lucky on doing everything..
i hv luck tats wat i believe..
i get a good job the 1st time i worked..
i get a good surrounding..
im hapi wt my life..
i can get a good result 4 the level of brain n wat i done..
but by time goes on..luck oso goes sumwhere else..
there r no more by my side..
everything looks lik getting difficult..
even i hv done all tat i could but..
wat happening isnt as wat i wish..
i din hang the hope up to the sky but..
it cont gving me dissapointment..
deducting my confident..my hope on this world..
wat i hv been keep as a trust 4 my life..
everything i nd to change..
everything is so cloudy in front of me..
family is hving prob..
study is hving prob..
relation is hving prob..
myself is hving a prob..
every1 is wishing im following their instruction..
i missed a lot of things..i wana gain back..
but it seem lik no choice for me..
everything is delaying n delaying..
from genting til now..everything !!
i wish i could delete it..
erase 2007 n restart it again..
could i hv this wish from santa ??

tears..

wats tears??
hw it come from??
why it wil come??
the reasons??
from dictionary tear mean a drop of liquid that comes out of ur eye when you cry..
usually sadness bring tears but..
sumhow happiness do bring tears too..
any1 can cry..a baby, a child, a gal, a guy even a man or a granny..
babies cry to show they nd sumthing..
child cry cz they r sad..
adult cry may cz of hapi or sad..
as human growth they bcome more n more complicated..
im not sure wat a guy cry for..
but tears for a gal is to release their stress..
it might cz they r too happi or too sad..
sumtime tears may not come out of our eyes..
but from sum other place lik our heart..
when is too pain a hurt..
tear is another medicine of curing the wound..
if tear came from happiness
is the best of it..
sumtime cz too touching or too happi le..
tears auto come out..tats the great part..
try b4 laugh til lik cry?? i hv try tat so many times..
hwver been long time din happen on me le this..
hope i hv tears to cure me..
cz i cant hardly get a drop of it..

Friday, November 30, 2007

processing..

4 all this while..
i din make a move even is necessarily to do..
jz keep waiting things to change
n being silly sitting alone
hope everything wil change..
hwever i reali don wan waste any time le..
i hv make the move le..
telling wat i wan..
doing wat i wan..
n the rest is..
jz get ready for the result..
hope it wont disappoint me..
watever happen..
i stil hv my frenz n family..
i wil nvr die without it..
jz mayb better wt it..
i love u all..

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

chocolate

chocolate..
i lik chocolate..
i lik bitter sweet chocolate..
i do think life is lik chocolate..
so do love..
chocolate hv many taste..
mostly chocolate we found in the market is sweet..
and is lik our life..
we wil found most of it is sweet..
n is good when is full of great memories..
hwever too sweet wil nvr make it so special..
we nd sumthing different..
to make it unique..
so there's the bitter chocolate come..
not every1 love this kind of chocolate..
cz sum of them cant accept it..
is depend to every1 personally..
this kind of chocolate remind me of pain,hurt,wound...
this wil bring human sadness..
human being doesnt lik this kind of feeling..
hwever without it life dont seem special..
when sumthing is hurt,we wil appreciate the nxt time..
to make sure no more tat kind of bitter..
mean while do hv chocolate contain alcohol..
mostly chocolate wont contain alcohol in a large amount..
alcohol do bring sum elegant imagine..
n i wil think of the time we proud of..
but mostly when say bout alcohol..
it make me think of drank which everything is not clear..
same as life,do hv time tat we r not clear the way we hv to choose..
there r so many choices in front of us..
which wil b better for us..
or when at the bottom of the world..
there's no windows or fresh air coming..
then there chocolate taste sour..
n this don hv explain..
cz i lazy explain it..^^
thin ur self ba 4 this..
anyway..
enjoy ur life lik u enjoy every bite of chocolate..
if u don mind..
pliss leave a comment bout it..
^^ thanks..

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

avoiding ma??

is been 20days..
but y this happened..
u seem lik avoiding me..
wat did i do??
could u tell me??
or i think too muc..lik wat u tell me alwiz..
wats happening..
can u tell me ma??
is it tat u too bz??
or u bored of it..
could u tell me??
don keep silent..i don noe wat u r thinking bout??
don let me keep on guessing here..
don treat me lik tat ok?
is hurt..
i hope u r not lik the penang guy or even b the 2nd monitor..
don ever b lik them..
pliss..
im still waiting u here..
tell me wat u wan..
wat happened there??
im ready to listen it..but when is the time u going to tell me??
ppl around me ask me to go to u 4 the answer
n not keep waiting here..
im pretty scare of ur answer but i wish i could noe it..
confuse n confuse..argh!!!
hope u r not gving me tat kind of answer..
hmm..

Friday, November 16, 2007

love is such a weird thing..

wat is love??
is reli a weird thing..
recently alot of my frenz find me..
or i realise theyare facing this kind of prob..
love..
is jz a sweet word..a lovely word too..
is lovely n sweet when u found sum1 u lov n so do him..
at 1st..
but things doesnt goes as ppl think..
it might sweet at 1st but later on..
im sure in every relation of a couple..
they wil hv an arguement whether is small or huge..
when they get through it together, their love is getting stronger..
but if they din..hw is the ending??
or..
when u in love wt sum1..
who can gurantee me..
tat the other one is serious in this relation..
u r putting the heart, patient,hope n everything on it..
but wil he/she do the same things?
who can tell tat they reli lov n not others things else??
who tell me they r the one we can bear on??
u can tell me this is all bout trust..
but if sum1 getting hurt n hurt everytime..
the trust surely wil fade away..
our granny generation's love story is no more in this generation le..
we onli can find at drama or hearing it from granny..
but is hard to find it nowadays..
n y god creating this in human life..
could gob tell us??
hw many time after getting pain n hurt..
onli the true one wil b there..
so tat we r readi for all those..
wasnt it love is loving, protecting each?
but y now there r many ppl getting wound??
argh..don noe wat else to say le..
anyway good luck 4 every1..so do me..
don put too muc hope on it..
when it doesnt meant to b..
it wont hurt u tat muc..

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

wat a gal wan...

to those guys wana noe gals more..
this is most of the gals thinking..
this may help!!



glitter-graphics.com

Friday, November 2, 2007

hvn end but started..

1st of all..
thanks for all my frenz..
for wat they did on my big big day!!
im veli hapi tat day..
thanks alot..im veli gam tung..
hwever sumthing did make me hapi n so do make me stress..
the same things make me stress, headache but oso make me hapi..
bcz of them..
i feel im so bad..
reli evil..
i hate doing this but i hv to..
i nd a deep deep breathe to do so..
hem..when wil i tell him this le..
hope as soon as possible

Monday, October 29, 2007

october

feel lik is been long time din post a blog..
is going to end this oct..
and there r many things happened in this month
alot, so muc of things..
started wt a new job, new job position, new frenz..
many new things..
meeting back the old classmate, best frenz, ..
meeting the stupid manager..
working n working..
resigned, visit the balai,labour law,..
boring n boring life started..
n now started to look for another job..
hwever today is my ah gor's birthday..
hope tat he hv a wonderful day..
talking bout ah gor..
he is reli a great guy..
im proud to hv him as my ah gor..
n two days to go..
it is 31st of oct..
is a hallowen day..
hapi hallowen to every1..
n to me too ^^

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

2 days off..

yesterday n today is my off day..
in this 2 days, nth reli special i did..
went out wt my dearest fren n her sis..
yesterday i hang out at her home n out for tea time..

hehe ^^ eat at mcd le..

then after meal..
this is wat happened..

the before n after..






































my creation


greatest fren


the nxt day..
we went to sushi king at parade

Monday, October 22, 2007

ais kacang..

ais kacang!!
is a food make of ice n many things..
my life today is lik tat le..
everything mix together..
i saw a few of my frenz
the frenz tat i long time din meet jor
reli damn mizz them..(one of them is my ah gor)
it should b a great day..
cz i met all my frenz tat i mis so muc
n my day spoilt..
i was ask to work full today..
n i tot the 4 little bro can go back earlier cz they wil hv their exam tomolo..
but she din let them go..
things get worse n worse..
she scold again n i was the one who helping to solve her prob..
wat can i do anymore??
i can feel at the end of my life..
i reli cant think of anythings..
her prob all throw to me..
im veli veli tried..
i hope i can cry out of my heart..
but who wil und..
i could feel im alone..standing alone at a dark street..
fighting by myself..
force to b tough..
i hope sum1 could by my side..
helping me..doing it wit me..
guiding me..
but..
sum1 told me b tough..
is not easy to b tough..
no1 wil noe the painess inside..
hw hard to b..
i hope i can cry out from my heart..
but..

Saturday, October 20, 2007

resign

i hand my resign letter yesterday..
but still hv to work a week more..
cz they nd a week notice to resign..
don wan stay looking at the bitch face..
reli hate..
when she nd u ..
she wil soften her voice..
but she dint nd u..
her face is lik the "har min son"
haiz..
today whole day no mood work..
kent came this morning, n i hv gvn him the complain letter..
wish now there is a guy where i can lend on his shoulder..
anyone can borrow me his shoulder??
veli tired..
long time din rest..
go shop, watch movie, chit chat, daydreaming,..
miz those days..
any1 can bring me back to those life..
reli feel wana get a guy by side..
but no1 wan me..
any recommendation??
=.= im getting crazy le!!
i cant stay anymore..
the longer i stay there..
the more abnormal i wil b..

Monday, October 15, 2007

wat a bitch !!

the bitch..
who else if not her..
the manager im working wit..
reli damn hate hate her ar!!!
i try to control my feeling..
but she reli annoying..
she damn dare scold me le!!
baka !!!!!
for no reli reasons she change me to the floor as waitress..
my duty is at the bar there..
n she don hv brain to think..
im jz a gal..n i hv to do serve all the drinks..
damn cruel she is..
this bitch oso lik to tell lies..
scare of trouble..
computer don noe..
system don noe..
onli noe hw to make up..
noe hw to make calls..
tat mouth nth good come out..
said ppl this not good tat not good..
parking oso nd ppl park for her..
yesterday her home in thief..
then called kent go see see..
i ask kent wat she wana u go there 4..
nth then jz stand n look around..
wasting ppl's time n petrol onli la this bitch..
cant imagine hw hate im to her..
i interview as cashier..
now she push out to the floor..
summore don wan me step in to the cashier place..
don wan ask me or talk wt me anythings..
im thinking of resign..
but b4 i go..
i wil make her life suffer..
i would make her stand healhty de!!!
the things she did reli too over le..
kent's dad in hospital..
he hv to back kl n by his side..
she did allow too..
the more cruel is tat..
she said now his dad still alive not yet pass away..
don hv to back oso..
hw come this can b out of a lady mouth..
she even force kent to resign..
woh...bitch bitch..
i don noe wat else i can called her then this..
there is many many things she did..
is numerous..
the full ppl in that restaurant oso din lik her de..
can truelly say tat..

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

after 2 weeks..

after more then 2 weeks work..
today is my 1st day of off day..
haha veli hapi..
early in the morning i went the acs..
go back to the school to get my stpm cert..
cz i heard tat..
if in this year u din take it..
they wil sent it back to jabatan pendidikan..
then u wil get fine rm50 to get back..
or u may ask ur parent to get it wil u r not in ipoh..
after taking it..i went to jusco..
meet my dearest fren..
b4 tat stil back to my work place settle sumthing..
hehe..
me n my fren order alot of things..

tats wat we hv order..
but can finished..

haha..then me n my fren chat n chat alot of things!!
then around 5pm lik tat..
we leave the restaurant..

tats the end
haha..

this is my colleagues..

"" i learned how to upload photo jor le ""
in the future i wil try my best to put more pic de la!!

Thursday, October 4, 2007

useless

im damn useless now..
tats wat i feel onli..
troubling..messy up the things..
then is no cure for me..
don noe wat should i do..
i hope i wont trouble kent anymore..
there is many things happened today
im damn down now..
summore tired
sleepy..
no feeling to talk anymore..
i force myself to b tough
i don wan to cry..
i hope i can b smarter..
stop gving prob anymore..
wish to kill myself..
this is the hardest work i hv done..
last time all ok de..
hate myself so muc..
so many things waiting me to settle
wat should i do??
i cant think of anytime..
my brain is jam now..
kill me ba!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

after a week..

after a week working there..
things started to get better..
noe wat should do, hw to settle things..
but still got many things to learn more..
today is oso kent's birthday..
we celebrate 4 him..
cz his family at kl..
then im working full today n tomolo..
n this whole week oso full..
so to all my frenz..
if u hv any serious, important things..
call me or msg me!!
i wil try my best to reply u as fast as possible..
hehe..
he msg me today..
wt a veli sweet forward msg..
haha..don talk bout him le..
sum1 wil say i alwiz mention him here..
then wil jealous de la..
lol xD

Monday, October 1, 2007

tired..pain..

veli cham...
don noe y my left eye bcome red jor..
sumtime feel pain..
cant even open my eye..
is been many days..
so im wearing my spec le..
T.T
veli ugly..not nice
then tired..
veli tired after work..
is lik after the war..
damn tired..many things to do..
new manager..new rules..new staffs..
many new things
n today sumthing new things come..
the credit card machine..summore things to do..
argh..reli reli damn tired..
cant imagine i wil sleep as early as 9.30pm
nvr sleep so early
last nite stil dream
haha xD
dream i stil work collecting money..
still working ther..
woh!!
so horrible la man..
cant sleep whole nite..
worry tat worry this
today summore got to training the new cashier..
me oso new casshier le!!
aiyo stil nd to training other ppl
now still worry the new cashier can manage handle all the things..
tomolo got to work full..
whole more damn tired le..

Friday, September 28, 2007

he's back..

im working today..
suddenly i received a msg n it was him..
he's back..
he's asking me out!!
but not onli me la..his fren oso wil go along..
i noe his fren~actually is our classmate too..
but i cant go..hv work tomolo!!
veli disappointed..
long time din see him le..
n mostly he wil bz wt his study..
now he's free coming back..
but cant out..
don noe when can meet him le..
hope i can see him..
this guy is the guy who alwiz i mention in my blog..
erm..
wat to say anymore??
the too personal story..
don wan tell u here!!
haha!!

being forced..

haiz..being forced by my fans..
to write blog..
my blog nice to read le..
no la..joking la..haha..
actually onli 2ppl ask me la..
but this 2nvr leave comment after reading!!
i wil write wat happened to me this few days
i was working at morning til evening..
ppl there nice n funny..
i learned alot from a guy who teach me since i the 1st day ~ kent
he forgive me wat i did wrong every morning..haha..same thing!!
dreaming early morning!! lol
but veli patient to me..
got 2 more ppl same name wt me there..
waiter ah mun, kitchen ah man & the cashier ah mun(me)..
came a new manager..nice!!
but do hv the no good place..but i noe she is trying to make things work better..
tomolo still hv training..aiyo..
wat she wana teach i oledi can guess 80%
most of wat she wana teach i oledi noe jor..
4 the serving..nth do wt me as cashier..=.="
back from home jz on9 awhile then nd to sleep le..
even time lik passed so fast a day..
but is meaningful..hapi everyday..
din think so muc anymore..
pratice my brain again..haha..
saw alot of ppl i noe at the place i work..
frenz, ex-schoolmate, ex-workmate,teachers,...alot..
good is the ans for this few days..

Monday, September 24, 2007

1st day of work..

woh!!
wake up early..so long din wake up early le..
then go work..1st day of working..
learn alot
i work as cashier..
quite tired..
but enjoy it..
ppl there ok de..
i oso saw my classmate there..
came wt her bf n sum frenz..
miz her..
tonite got to sleep early le..
his name keep on appear today..
ppl stil relate him wt me..
hw le?

Saturday, September 22, 2007

he called..

this morning..
suddenly he called me..
asking whether i received a letter from uum anot..
he said he's back now..
back to take some documents..
wt a foreign fren..
we talk awhile bout hw's his life n everythings..
tats all..
erm..
wat happen le?

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

the guy who love you..

i read this at frenster..
veli meaningful..haha
i do drop a few tears when read it!!
hope he appear..
this is wat written..

"The guy who love you ,
if he can't always see you,
he will try to make himself busy,
for not to have any time to remember you,
because he knew,
if he did,
he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.

The guy who love you,
can't tell you the reason why he love you.
he only knew that,
in his eyes,
you are the only one.

The guy who love you,
seldom praise you ,
but in his heart,
you are the best,
only he know it.

The guy who love you,
will scold or complaint if you didn't reply his message but others,
because he cares.

The guy who love you ,
Only drop his tears in front of you,
when you try to wipe his tears,
you are touching his heart ,
the heart which beat for you.

The guy who love you ,
will remember every word u said ,
even its accidentally.
and he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who love you,
will not give any promise that easily,
because they don't want to break the promise,
they want you to believe him and
they want to give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

The guy who love you,
always tell you not to think too much,
because they already plan it for you,
he want to give u the best life in the future,
he want to give you a suprise,
belive him that he can do it.

The guy who love you,
will go to airport to fetch you,
he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you darling like what you expect.
but he will carry your ludgage and ask you
" why are you becoming that thin within two days?"
with his sincere heart.

The boy who love you,
will listen quietly to you,
when you are mad,
and when you finished,
he will said,
you still got class tomorrow,
sleep earlier with smile.

The boy who love you,
don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry,
but he will sent a message to you after few hours,
if you ask him why he call that late,
he will said,
when you are angry,
my explanation are all rubbish.
But when you calm down,
my explanation will only really works.

The boy who love you,
always call you little kid,
but everytime he want to make a big decision,
he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who love you,
don't like little toy like teddy bear,
but he will always put the bear you gift him at his bed.

The guy who love you,
while quarelling,
he will apologize uncontrollably,
althought you are the one who's wrong,
and later,
he will sent a message to you with
" baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself "

The guy who love you,
while really miss you,
he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait you stupidly under your apartment.
but he never knows ,
what he bought is daisy,
but doesn't matter,
because in his heart,
that's roses.

GALs in crush, love,
do you think the guy who's beside you do really love you?
if yes, wish you have the happiest day ever after."

when it wil come le tat day??
sum where at the calender..
hehe..i think soon ge le..
haha..hope so..

Thursday, September 13, 2007

i saw her !!

today is the most bz day i hv in this 2weeks..
cz pass this 2weeks..
i oso stay at home..
doing nth special..
today i wake up by mum..=="
haha..cz yesterday sleep late le!!
then go out wt mum le..
reach my sis's school to fetch her..
don noe where gone le this fellow!!
go search her whole school..
onli see the bag..==" human don noe where gone le..
atlast found her le..get scold from me..
haha..veli fierce le me..
then go to my granny's home..
onli me n my sis..
mizz my granny so muc le..
she is my 1st love..haha..
veli important to me de..
reach there i help do everything..
she jz sit down relax..haha..
i teach my cousin (onli kindergarden)
cz my granny veli 'luo hei' when teach her de..
done everything 4 her..
cz now she oledi old le..(but the most beautiful woman in my heart)
should rest more..if i afford..
let her go 4 vacation..
mayb go china?? i noe she wana go there again..
or shanghai?? (but 1st mz learn my mandarin le)
any place oso nvm..i wil bring her de..
love her so so muc..^^
then bout time to fetch my youngest sis le..
so i back lo..at my sis's school..
i saw another person!!
she is..haha..
she is my old classmate..
she, me, n another gal(called ratna)
3 of us alwiz fight in class during f4 &f5
haha..the fight i mean is..
not pulling hair scalp the face..
is fight 4 the top three la..
once exam come we wil fight for the top 3..
hehe..each race got represent..
i represent chinese..
she represent indian..(btw her name is shalines)
ratna represent malay..
hehe..
then wt veli hapi hapi mood back home..
then veli good mood chat wt frenz..
then write blog..
haha..then hope get sweet sweet dream oo..
haha..^^
veli hapi today..yea!!
one more good news is..
my salary out jor!!haha..

Saturday, September 8, 2007

is time..

yesterday it seem lik i quite depress..
but today after a fren told me sumthing..
n after i went to view his blog..
suddenly i feel sumthing different..
reli thankful to him..
he let me noe tat is time i hv to move forward..
i hv been staying this place 4 so long..
n is time 4 me to move on..
sum place tat i should be..
the past jz let it be ba..
is no use alwiz staying wt them onli..
life still goes on..
there still muc more things in front waiting 4 me..
n not onli move forward but oso changing..
as human growth, they wil change..
so do i..not onli from outside..
but inner too..thanks 4 my frenz tat being through so muc wt me..
n is time 4 me to walk it by myself..
soli 4 being so selfish no letting u all go..
finally take care n keep in touch u guys n gals..

no title

actually i don reli noe wat i wana talk bout this time..
jz suddenly feel wana write sumthing..
wondering around, looking around, but not hanging around..
damn boring this few days cz staying at home..
when im free i wil think n think..
or u can say i lik daydreaming..
or u can say i lik to imagine..
my brain wil keep on thinking n thinking..
i alwiz think back the past..
everything at the past..
the moment wt my frenz during school time..
the moment wt my ex during the time we were together..
every of my frenz do bring a mean to me..
they r so important to me tat i believe i wont 4get them..
if i do tats mean u din mean any then as a stranger..
i appreciate every single of my frenz..
n i alwiz wish tat the feed back..
not onli my frenz but every1 tat i noe..
as i noe i try my best to treat every1 the most nice way i can..
but i do hv the time not being good..
cz i still a normal gal..
a gal tat wil get heart broken..
a gal tat wil get hurt..
a gal tat wil cry..
a gal tat wil depress..
i do feel wana share this wt my frenz..
but do they hv the time 4 me??
do they willing to sit down n listen??
do they feel im irritating??
im not sure of it..
sumtime i don wana trouble my frenz..
i noe every1 hv their own things to do..
they do hv their own prob to settle..
they do hv more important things to do then listening to me..
as i offen found my frenz bz 4 their exam or their works..
so i started to learn a way 4 me to express my feeling..
which is writing it down..
it is lik a way im telling every1 wat happening to me..
n when they r free to drop by n hv a few sentences on..
cz to me..frenz should share..
sharing is important between a frenship...
the more u share the closer relationship they hv..
cz sharing mean the happiness or sadness happening to u recently..
from there oso we will noe each better..
n thats the way hw to b closer fren..
for example if im not hapi at the moment..
a fren came n gving me sum opinions n suggestions to solve the prob im hving..
it might not solve my prob but the important thing is..
u r being by my side n walk wt me to cross my difficult time..
together we grow , together we cry , together we laugh..
n tats the memories we hv..
wt tat all memories wil stay wt us until the end of our life..
we cant noe when r we leaving this world..
make this world a better place to live..
do concern ppl around us..
do believe ppl around us..
do treat them lik ur loved one..
but do this world reli lik tat??
n y is there sum ppl is telling lies??
when the other is trusting them without any suspect..
y is there sum ppl hurting another human being??
when the other is being so kind n bless to u..
y is there sum ppl playing around??
when the other is trying to help indeep..
n y is this happening??
can any1 answer..
isit bcz of they r selfish??
not caring wat others is think then their own happiness..
as long as they r living happily..
they doesnt caring whether wat r they doing is hurting sum1 who reli loved them..
n tat hurt may reli hurt..taking a long time to recover..
or sumtime is may not cure 4ever..stay there..
the hurt may keep the person staying all nite..
or tiring herself by crying to sleep every nite..
acting lik nth wrong wt her..jz stay normal..
but she is jz hiding sumthing inside where no1 noe its..
cz she don noe where to share it..
n who to share it wt??
so don ever ever hurt sum1..
the pain tat suffer may reli leave a deep scar 4ever..
is lik hoping 4 a relationship so long to begin..
where believe both do feel the same way..
but suddenly things changed..
the hope n ambition tat u hv put all hv destroyed..
trying to 4get it..trying to let it go..
seeing lik normal..
but whose noe tat every9 the way to sleep is tiring cry to sleep..
every single words tat relate sum to the cruel person..
or any fwd msg tat received was the cruel person sent to u b4..
those is lik killing u slowly n slowly..
the feeling is lik twisting lemon on the wounds..
trying many ways to 4get it..
after sumtime believing tat actually could accept back being as a fren..
n by time goes on..
then only realise tat it wasnt working..
it still hurt, pain n torturing..
so nvr try to hurt any1 around u..cz is reli suffer..
love them wt u heart, care them when they nd u..
if there r sumthing u wana share, look 4 sum1 u feel comfortable wt..
if there is no1 4 u..n u don mind..
u r please to find me..im free to b ur listener..
a quiet listener if u which too..
at last..love every1 around u while u still hv the chances..

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

wana find sumthing!!

i think there is sumthing lost in my world now!!
sumthing is missing..
wat i lost n i need to find it back..
is it the time??
is it the work??
is it a person??
im not reli sure rite now!!
but most important tat is..
im damn boring at home now..
cz im jobless now!!
so to settle tat..
i got to get a job..
yea for the information..
im not going to genting anyway..
cz after 2weeks as they ask me to wait..
they din even inform , call , or anything letting me noe..
so mostly they don wan me le..
is ok de..nvm..i wont die de!!
but jz feel soli 2 a fren..
as she tot we r going to work there together..
n wat she did is she apply do her training there too..
oo so i hope she wont b upsad bout it..
soli..alot of soli to u le..(u noe who u r)
then i need to find a job as im not going up to the mountain..
wat am i looking oso not reli sure actually!!
but mostly of cz sumthing tat wt high paid..
then im interested in it too..
im quite of boring working as promoter le..
looking sumthing different..
mayb promoter oso can but other things..
mayb a clothes promoter..
so when i buy new clothes there is a staff price!!
hehe..y not?? is oso a good idea!!
so do a fren tell me a farmasi got a place..
but i stil hvn get any info bout it!!
n im still wondering where should i go..
no nd to worry bout the transport..
sumthing im interested..
where can meet alot of ppl de..
is there any job tat is lik tat??
haha..yea mayb got..but i hv to look for it..
sum where is hidden!!
i reli hope tat i can learn new things wt my new job!!
summore im feeling abit lonely..
cz i hv too muc time at home nowadays..
haha..reli boring..nth to do..
walk in walk out..eat sleep..
kacau there kacau here..kacau every1..
should i find a person..
a person to keep me away from loneliness..
where is this person??
feel wana sum1 to care alot..
not a kind of fren's care..sumthing else..
sumtime i do quite miss my ex..haha!!
wat happen to me?? =.="
mayb its not the time yet..
im not meeting the rite person..
so i hope the rite person wil soon appear in front of me..
but i still hope the one is him..
this few days im thinking back of him(not my ex la!!)
thinking back our past..wat happened between us..
imagine if tat time we were together..
hw could it b?? wat would it now??
is he stil my mr.right??
oo!! i hv too muc time to think this things le..
thinking sumthing wont turn back!!
thinking useless things..
better fast fast get a job le..
hehe...^^..then wont think so muc lo!!

Sunday, September 2, 2007

miss him so muc !!

today atlast i get to install my antivirus programme..
but still hv sumthing to do summore..
don noe y after i install the antivirus programme..
everything seem lik work so slow..
even it is wat happening rite now..
anyway better then i hvn install tat antivirus programme..
then as my title said i miss him so muc..
actually i sent a msg to him yesterday..
cz is been a long time i din heard any news from him..
but he din reply me..
so i tot he might too bz to reply me..
or he might change his phn no..
jz looking 4 a reason y he wasnt replying the msg..
as i 4get this thing today..
suddenly he sent me a msg answering y he wasnt replying me yesterday..
he's telling that he is so bz recently..
even he is in kl rite now..
n so do sum of his frenz..
but he din even hv the chance to go anywhere..
so i ask him to take care himself..
as i noe he wil get sick once gving too muc stress to himself de..
feel abit worry bout him le..
after chat wt him awhile..
i started to miz him jor..
wat happened to me le..
this come back to me??
haiz..cannot de la!!

Friday, August 31, 2007

wat should i feel rite now !!

i reli don noe wat should i feel rite now!!
hapi or not!!
many things happened to me recently
expecially in this week!!
so so muc..making me so tired!!
as i said in my last blog..
i get virus..n i tot it was over after i settled it..
onli i think is settled but the real fact ..
tats not wat working on..
after the nite of the settling virus(actually not)
the nxt day i went to parade wt my best fren n my kei sai lou..
then things go on lik normal n hapily..
but once im back!!
OMG!!i cant open any website la..
is include frenster,, email,, n oso my blog !!!!
i mean all website but luckily i stil can on9 4 msn..
then i start to get ppl to help me..
at 1st im reli reli blur wat to do at this virus as i tot i settled it jor that nite..
aiyo..actually i did nth at all tat nite..
aiya!!
i was so so damn scare tat time..cz i make my pc lik tat jor!!
haiz..
n wats the most important is tat my parent hvn noe bout it yet!!
i cant imagine if this let them noe jor wat would happen to me!!
then im looking around to get more n more help!!
sum tell me tat i need to turn on my anitivirus n buy an antivirus programme..
a new antivirus programme to install to my pc..
sum told me tat i need to reformat my pc again..
oh no!!cant reformat my pc..if not sure my parent wil noe it!!
while i get the help..i get alot of info in this matter jor!!
then i decided to go parade on thurs again to buy tat cd!!
hoping he wil join me..but he cant..
cz he was so bz tat day..
is ok..but reli make me angry him tat is ..
he sent me a mandarin msg telling me he was not free.
luckily i noe a few words n can guess wat actually he try to say!!
i told him b4 tat i cant reli read mandarin n he stil sending it too me!!
argh!! hate him..
after i bought tat cd..
i went hv a walk myself alone at parade!!
don noe y..jz don feel wana back so fast..
reli cant stand anymore then i went home..
haha..tell a secret..tat day i din eat whole day!!
reach home jor..then i try to install it lo..
damn it!!
take me so so so long time to install..
at last it was hang there!!
wat can i say n do??
nth then re do all again!!
i was so so sleepy tat day!!
feeling so lazy to do this all..
then after tat..at nite a fren of mine thought me hw to use internet to scan the virus!!
haha cz when i try to install tat antivirus tat evening..
after tat i can open the website jor..
but i noe i stil need to install tat antivirus again..
so tat this wont happened again..
i was so hapi..atlast i can open sum website jor!!
haha..but the antivirus now is gving me trouble
cant install..don noe y!!
now still trying many ways to install it..
hopefully i can do it la..
cz if not..
my fren said hv to reformat it..
don wan la to format it!!
cz cz..don feel wana reformat it..
haha..^^
anywhere..my gor wil b back on 31st of august..
he promised wil out meet meet me..
don noe he stil remember it anot..
or do he hv time to come out!!
if he's bz not free to come out oso nvm de..
cz i understand tat my gor alwiz veli bz de..
i work on 31st of august..
helping my fren as she is not healthy tat day..
after work back reli tired..
jz feel wana sleep le..
but i hvn settle my pc yet..
so hv to make myself do it oso..
abit headache jor..mayb cz recently not enough sleep..
anyway i think i will settle my pc soon..
from this inccident..
i get to noe who reli care me n who's not!!
who is reli my fren n who's not!!
who i can depend on n who's not!!
who r the frens indeep trying to help!!
anyway this is jz a way to noe who is treating me as a fren..
BTW every1 outside there..
u all stil my fren..
the onli matter is..
whether u r my zhi mui??
whether u r my greatest fren??
whether u r my best fren??
whether u r my soul mate??
whether u r my trustworty fren??
whether u r my normal fren??
whether u r my fren??
whether u r sum jz pass by onli??
or watever u r!!
there is a status in my heart..
lastly thanks for being my frenz n the care u guys n gals gave!!

Monday, August 27, 2007

lucky or unlucky

i don noe whether this is count as lucky or not..
as i get tmnet streamyx 4 on9 almost more then a month..
but now onli i get it..
wat i get ??
nth then this terrible things...>>>>>>>> "VIRUS"
hw i get it?? haha..
a fren of mine in msn...sent me a website..
so i click on it..n wat i get is virus le!!!!
OOoo..
then reli don noe wat to do le!!
reli blur tat time..
then try to get help lo..
as i don reli good in comp de..
haiz..lucky my fren can help me..
actually the same person (who sent me the virus n help me to solve it)
then try to get the prob lo..
actually is related to y i can get the virus is..
i turn the antivirus off jor..
last time i din hv on9 service in my home..
so i turn it off..
but later after i get tat service jor..
i forget jor to turn it on back..
aiyo..actually is oso my wrong!!
then after turn it on back..
then reinstall back it, the antivirus!!
summore b4 the reinstallment hv to scan the files 1st..
waste alot of time there..
haiz..
atlast finished all at 1.11am ..
including the reistallment..
today reli many things happened to me la..
1st im feeling not well (headache , feeling lik vomit, ..)
morning nth de..but later its come..
then the virus!!
anyway everythings settled jor..
n im felling better..
n once again i wana thanks my fren here 4 helping me to solve the prob..

Sunday, August 26, 2007

he say tat..hw le??

today jz lik same..
i on9..hehe..actually i on9 everyday ga la..
haha..^^
he find me..everytime he on9 wil find me chat de..
i do meet him b4 de..
then..lik usual lo we chat..
but today..
he say sumthing reli make me confuse..
don noe hw i should do le..
he say he miss me..
veli veli mis me de..
then if not bcz i live veli far..
one at east one at west..
too far le..
but i don noe whether he is serious of this..
he say if not bcz of distance..
he think he wil fall in..
is he serious??
he scare he wil hurt me tats why he din act..
haiz..erm..
if reli i think i wil..
erm..don noe le..
so complicated now..
confuse wat should i do..

Thursday, August 23, 2007

a day jz pass by..

today i wake up early in the morning..
long time din wake up so early jor le....
cz now no need work le..staying at home onli..
n today i wake up so early cz i need to go out today..
for all this long i din go out home since i back from genting 4 interview..
n today im going out..
helping my fren to get the books he wana..
i was thinking mayb hv a walk after helping my fren..
so after i get ready to go out..
the sky stil shine veli bright..
n im lazy to bring along my umbrella..
so i jz went out lik tat..
i cant get a bus..n im going to late!!
atlast i successfully get into a bus le..
omg..again everytime whenever im in hurry the bus driver wil waste a lot of time..
haiz... -.- ""
then he(my fren)pho me!!i think he hv arrived le...
we promised to meet at 1pm..but when he called tat time was 1230noon..
oo my!! he hv to wait me le..
feel reli soli bout it..
then almost near town the sky started to turn..
turn to rainny day!!
n i din bring along my umbrella wt me!!
it is reli not a suitable day 4 me to go out today..
or may is gving me a hint tat i should onli stay home le??
usually at home sun shine but once i go out is raining..
then at last i arrived jor le..
he oledi waiting me there..reli soili bout it..
got to wait me..haiz!!
then i call my kei sai lou!! asked him to come out the main door or the college..
then go in gv deposit to borrow books..
then go to library lo..
this is the 1st time i saw my kei sai lou la.. after he bcome my little bro!!
haha..he reli cute de..shy shy de!!seldom talk wt me!!
then he, my fren started to search the books he wana borrow..
mean while i chat chat wt my sai lou lo!!haha..abit shy le him..
then after finish then we go lo..
my fren 400pm got thing to do ..got meeting..
so he got to go le..
left me alone nth to do..then go back lo..
don wan alone go walk walk le..
boring better go home..my sai lou stay at college..then don wan bother him lo!!
on the way back(at the bus) he msg me..tat time stil raining..
telling me tat he gone home jor..
once i arrived home let him noe..
then when i arrived i reply him..
then i feel quite sleepy..
so go n take a nap le..
i seldom take nap in the evening de..
once i wake up is hard 4 me to get back to sleep de..
around 6 lik tat i wake up jor..
haha.. cz hungry jor!!
no1 choi me..
telling mum im hungry..she lik nth de..
then i cook maggie mee lo..
hehe..after eat jor onli my mum wana started to cook..
gei sei ngau la!!
then on9 n on9 lo..
suddenly feel lonely le..
this feeling followed me since im in the bus coming home nvr stop..
then looking around see is there any1 to chat wt!!
i found not muc..
even i got 100++ email but onli afew onli(10++) but not every1 i could talk wt!!
n summore i scare i disturd ppl le..
every1 got sumthing to do except me..
reli reli boring at home..
now i could realise hw tek seng's feeling during tat time le!!
haiz..jz hanging around..wondering around..thinking n dreaming..
started to think who am i??
who am i to my frenz??
isit im annoying??y there's no1 bother hw i feel le??
reli blue n down..
then i look for many ppl to chat..
my sai lou on9...
looking him to chat..
then my frenz joined the conversation..
b4 tat i hv talk wt him jor alot..
sumthing personal..all the advises he gv cant help muc..
but stil thankful wt all the time he spent to listen all my mumble n crazy words!!
after the conversation wt my sai lou n him..
im started to feel better..
im lucky tat i stil hv sum frenz bside me..
n my lovely sai lou..
n my kei gor..even he seldom look 4 me 2 chat.
i noe he's not free..he got many things to settle up..
expecially my kei sai lou..
he reli a nice, sweet, gentleman,...cute of cz...
after tat..i started feel sleepy le..around 1 sumthing..
oso i end the conversation wt my sai lou..
n when to sleep..tat nite i feel tat im im so in lucky to hv two bro..
one is the elder n the other is the younger one..
haha..actually i've been looking 4 a ah gor n sai lou 4 long time..
ah gor is to bear on..
sai lou is to cheer my life..
sound abit selfish here!! am i??
im not greedy..each got one is enough..
n im not simply get a ah gor or sai lou..
tats y i look so long onli found them!!

Sunday, August 19, 2007

good month..

in this month u can see i alwiz post good news de..
better then last month..haha..good good..
today is another nice day..haha..
today i din eat breakfast n lunch too..
haha..veli geng today..haha..hehe..
then the most important part is tat i learn driving today..
hehe..the 1st time i drive
my dad teach me drive at the garden..haha..
learn driving..
quite tough but interesting..
then back home..
on9 lo..ah gor find me chat chat..
hehe..my ah gor long time din find me chat chat le..
he now at malacca study mmu..
good guy..n smart de..caring de..
anyway..my ah gor is the best de la..
cute oso..n many many more la..
actually he is not my real ah gor..
is kei gor la..^^
long time din see him le..almost 2 or 3 years le..
alwiz call him out he not free de..or when find him on9 chat..
he not free de..cant chat long..sumtime i scare i disturb him oso..
so seldom find him de..but today different oo..
he come find me chat chat..we hv been long time din talk talk..
somemore we hv a long conversation..
reli hapi..summore i today chat wt a new fren i noe a few days ago..
reli hapi lo..hehe..n another good news is my ah gor is coming back soon le..
he promise to come out de..cant wait to meet him le..mizzz him so so much la..
but nvm la...as long as i can meet my gor then wait oso nvm la..

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

hapi hapi day

today early in the morning i went to my fren's house..
taking van to genting togather..
the driver stop at one of the toll rest stations..
the guy sat behind me wana go out to take a smoke..
i notice his quite familiar..
then i think n think again..
at last i remember who he is..
a person tat i hv not been seen 4 around 7years..
a person im not interested to noe or nvr think of wil meet him again..
b4 tat heard alot of his bad things in school..
this guy i oso noe his younger bro..
i noe his younger bro better then him..so do his younger bro..
talking bout this guy but din mention his name..
he is chun ming..from anderson..
i noe he is working there at the moment..
but din expect tat wil see him..
then i confirm him whether is him anot..n truely is him..
then along the way me n my fren chit chat & sleep..
hehe..arrived batang kali there..
the driver make a stop at the restaurant..
so all went to take their branch..
he came ask us whether we noe where is the hr location..
of cz i noe la..
i hv been there working la..haha..
but is kind he did tat..but it seen tat he won do tat in his life as i noe..
b4 we arrived both of us exchange our number..
n when arrived at genting resort,i was wondering which way should i take to hr..
he came n ask me whether i noe the way..
n he offer me to bring us there..
actually i noe the way..
but he was so willing to help i shouldnt turn him down..
so he bring us there..then he went back to his hostel..1st world..
n me n my fren took a form n fill in the information..
then we wait n wait..n here come our name hav been call out..
we were ask to measure the height..as we applied to b GSA (guest service assitance)
cz im not tall enough..so cant b.. ~~don laugh oo~~
interview b cashier lo..
main cage cashier.. work inside casino..
so ask bout the informations of cashier ( f&b , casino ) & coupier..
cz i got many fren work there as coupier de..
then i ask many many things de..haha..
then suddenly she say.."don worry i will interview u later"
so i go back outside n wait n wait again..
at last they call me in..
reli informal my interview..din ask to intro myself or formal way interview..
straightly she ask bout the job i wana apply..
then cashier lo..is either f&b cashier or casino cashier
so ask ask all decided f&b ba..non smoking area ma..
it was lik a conversation not an interview..
haha..enjoy tat interview actually..
so they told me tat i hv to wait for 2weeks to check me record as im the ex-staff..
summore i onli can work back there after 6months of my resign date..
tats mean in oct onli i can get back there workk..
asking me back in oct to work?? tats mean ask me not to work..
onli 2months working there..work 4 wat wor??
then i came out n wait my fren who interview inside
then she came out oos say she is not suitable to b GSA too..
so she oso change to b cashier too..
n now we stil need to wait as the form pass to another gal..
then at 130 tehy say go break..
then me n my fren go round round genting lo..
then at 215 i go back there..n stil wait n wait..
at last i stand le..
i go talk wt a man there telling him the things..
atlast her was called..she got the job..but hv to wait til oct..sad.
then another lady came..asking questions..
onli i noe tat if i was temporary is another case if i was permenant then if oso another case
if im temporary, jz wait 3months..
but if permenant then is 6months..
n tats mean if after 2 weeks they confirm me..
i don hv to wait til oct to start workk..
oo..so so hapi..
but then my fren is main cage cashier..
me f&b cashier..
so i take i chance to talk wt her again..
n wat i get is..
tats wat she put me in..as main cage cashier..
oo..more more hapi im..
then back at 5 lik tat wt cable car..
then my dad wait me at the hill there..
haha..so so so hapi oo me..
haha long story i wrote..pai xie..

Monday, August 13, 2007

leaving soon..

i leaving ipoh soon le..
going where?? as i wrote in my blog b4..
im going to genting le..
this sat wil go wt my fren to genting interview..
then if no prob wil b going back there on nxt wed!!
to start work..
at 1st reli exciting to go de..
but now abit different le..
i noe is normal to hv tat kind of feeling de..
this days hv many things to settle up..
lik last fri..i went to syuen for a road show..
organised by mca n segi uni..
they r doing a programme for appeal student..
bout sum courses..
i went there wt a fren of mine..
after they described it..
find it interesting..
i wil sign up the programme..
so nxt year wil go segi there study le..
at kl ba if not mistaken..
so this few days bz bz wt study things n plans going to genting..
i stil work ar..hehe..until end of this week tats mean fri or thurs..
my last day..
today i go sing sing wt cheng n kee..
at ebox..hehe
at there we met our old schoolmate~vivien cheng..
haha..many things happened..
no longer i won on9 offen n write blog tat muc le..

Saturday, August 11, 2007

i hope i can go but cant..

today got summerlive concert at ipoh padang besar..
i wish i can go...
but..i cant..
cz many many prob le..
no transport..
tomolo got to work!!
too late, parent don lik..
haiz..
veli sad ar..
my fenz all go there jor..
onli me..
T.T...

tagged jor..

oo..im been tagged..

Here are the rules:

1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

8facts/ habits::

-1- never try to bully or betray me..ur life wil get worst..cz im scorpion..

-2- im faithful..esp in lov n frenship..

-3- i hv my own opinion..cant force me do sumthing i don wan..

-4- im not veli smart or wise enough..sumtime quite blur blur de..

-5- im emotional person..

-6- im independent person..can go anywhere myself..even oversea..

-7- i wil tease ppl who weak then me but sumtime i do protect them oso la..

-8- i can cook quite well..hehe

mitchie ~ i got no frenz' blogger to tagged jor..hehe
cheng ~ the same reason..
hin leong ~ hehe pai xie..
khye chuan ~ no other ppl i can choose to tag
lip hon ~ hehe..my last ppl i onli hv to tag

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

bz bz bz..

even today i off..din work..but stil veli bz..
stil hv 2 wake up early..same lik usual i go to work tat time..
then back home oso around tat time..
actually off day oso din rest..
haiz..but nvm la..hehe..
noe y i so bz ma today ??
actually today i go 2a place veli far..
out of ipoh..wt my fren n her mum..
where?? is KAMPAR!!
why i go there?? to ask sum information of the utar!!
im thinking to enter utar at kampar..
or mmu at malacca..
this 2 place now is in my mind..
consider which to go for..
however this is not today's topic..
is saying y im bz bz..
early morning wake up..then take breakfast of cz..
hehe..mz take oo..
or wil pengsan!! haha!!
joking la won de..but no good if din take breakfast..
then take bus to ipoh main bus station..
then wit my fren n her mum..
we go to kampar..
along the way we chat n chat to pass the time..^^
then go tar college..hehe
then i find my best best fren there..
she is at the kitchen..got exam..
long long time din see her jor..
veli veli mizzzzzzzzzzz her oo...
then i go tar college's office to get info..
haha..veli pai xie..make mistake..
tot tar college n utar oso is under the same management de..
onli realise when arrive the office there..
haix..pai xie pai xie..
then after get some info..
go find another fren..a guy..
need to return him sumthing..
then go to utar..by taxi..don wan waste time ma..
but tat taxi driver uncle reli reli keras kepala punya orang..
tell him the way go utar..
he don believe..go another way..
at last he success arrived there..but tat place is the back door of utar..
cant get in through there de..
there they din provide visitor pass de..
so they say hv to follow the front gate..
the hv to around another round back to the actual place we show him..
n along the way he mumble n mumble..
reli mumble..saying tat roud should b the main gate..
haiz..uncle..ppl hv say tat the back door..
still wan to debate..haha..
then at last success to get in utar le..
reli a big place there..
but less ppl..not muc..
then after get details..understand jor..
then is time back le..
back wt bus again..
arrived at ipoh bus station near acs there around 5 lik tat..
then go in bercham to my fren's home..
back home..arrived at 7 lik usual i after work tat time arrived home..
so tats y i say off day lik no off de..
whole day bz do many things..
at last at home..
onli can settle down n get back to wat i do usually at home..
reli tired..

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

hapi day!!

today is reli a hapi day 4 me!!
y?? cz 1st even i need to go to work as usual..
actually i don wan work jor ma so normally ppl is not hapi when they need to do sumthing they don lik!!
but is ok 4 me today bcz she isnt working today..she off today..the another promoter there..
haha..no need see her today~a false person..
hwever she called her youngest bro who work there to as promoter but onli wil come on sat n sun..
to come over here jusco..
is ok..
he is not able to fight wt me..
won challenging me..
then i make a new fren there!!
a foreign tourism man..
this year is 27years old..
he learn mandarin during he studies at uni..
so we talk in mandarin n eng too..
mix mix..haha..then 2day reli many things happened la..
haha..^^

Monday, August 6, 2007

at last, finally..

haha..
this is a brand new month..
wishing great n better month wil b..
haha..at last, my fren has agree to go there wt me..
where?? har!! IS GENTING !!!
i wil b going to genting soon..
why i go there??for vacation?? to visit my genting's frenz??
haha..evrything is wrong..
im going to genting to WORK!!
working there is so hapi then working at ipoh..
tats real..omg..
u can imagine hw upsad im in ipoh!!
as i tell every1 i regret coming back tat time..
i should stay there!!
actually any place oso better then ipoh..
y?? cz wat u can find outside there but u cant get it in ipoh..
wats tat?? u better think it urself le..
haha..i not sure if there any1 agree wt wat i think..
but in my mind..i don wan to stay in ipoh anymore..
i can go anyway, any place..even oversea..
but not ipoh..
if saying ipoh is gving me a bad memories then it wasnt reli truth actually..
even in genting i do hv bad memories..
but the only thing is tat ipoh is not suitable 4 me..
is not the world i prefer to live in..
anyway watever wil happen in ipoh..
im leaving it soon..
as soon as possible..the faster the better..
haha..im so hapi im going to genting!!
n my fren is going wt me!!
n oso ..
finally at last in my blog there is a hapi blog from me..
the past few blogs i wrote oso unhapi n anger de..
n now there is some different in it!!
however if i reli going to genting..
i wil not tat frequent on9 anymore..
but i promise once i back to ipoh 4 holiday..
u wil see me on9 24hours!!
except i sleep le, go out jor or..hehe..
don wan tell u!!
take care every1 of my frenz..

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

hate hate her

soli if everytime or whenever u view my blog..
the blog i wrote sound sad or anger..
cz when i feel not good,sad,angry or anythings bad..
i wil write it out..
i seldom can find a person to talk wt..
so my way is to write it out..
back to the topic..
i hate hate her..
who is she..
she is my supplier so do she is my mum's fren..
when im back from genting (resigned jor)
she is the one who hired me..
oso my mum ask her to hire me de..
then i work there..
as wine promoter at a supermarket..
wat happen is..today is my last day of working there..
n suspose is a deal..
cz actually i was agree to work a day which tat day is a big event 4 tat supermarket..
tat day onli..
but wat happened is she ask me work a day earlier..
to help to prepare 4 the event..
ok tats fine..
then on tat day..the event..
she ask me to cont work seem tat i did nth at home ~ jobless..
then ask me work until end of this month..
ok tats fine..i agree..
then now she wan me to work again..
the fault is, she din tell my salesman tat im only working til end of this month tats mean today 31st of july..
i remind him (the salesman) tat today is my last day, a few days ago..
then only he noe..
argh....
hate hate hate her ar!!!!
reli hate her in deep..deep deep in the heart..
the most over over thing she do is..
she ask me to work til nxt month wor..
sept...she mean sept..oo..tats too long..
hard 4 me to pass the time there..
actually to b frank i don lik tat place anymore..
tats no meaning 4 me to stay there anymore jor..
kinda hate tat place jor..
reli hate invite me oso don wan go there jor..
hate hate hate..reli hate..
i told her i wil work..
but won b long won b until nxt month..
i wil die if reli lik tat..
i time is wasted over there..staying there..4 me i wasting time..
i nvr hate my job..this is the 1st time..
this job reli make me hate it so muc...
i won care wat happen..
whenever my fren confirm me tat she is going genting wt me..
i wil resign..without thinking..won think..
this is the final decision..
she is crazy asking me to work til nxt month..unbelieveable she say tat..
putting me working there is a waste,so evil, so cruel, so monster, so...
argh watever bad there r..
i cont work only bcz of the salesman..
he is a nice man..
4 them..i mean my mum n the supplier..
even they beg me oso i won again there..
nvr nvr wil b there anymore..
i think tat she n my mum..they 2 'pakat'..
they dun let me go..go away from ipoh..
dun wan let me leave ipoh..
honestly saying i reli reli reli reli ..
damn reli don wan stay at ipoh..
even is my hometown..
i don wan at here ar...
if yes..i reli reli hate them..
im big enough to make my own decision..
where i wan to go..what i wan..
so any1 can help me ma??
im looking 4 sum1 to replace me..
pliss..any1 interested..4 more information..
jz ask me..pliss is asap..thanks 4 all help tat im hoping..

Sunday, July 29, 2007

two of them..

they..
two of them..
they alwiz make me lik tat..
y..one of them wil b leaving..going to study..this mon wil b leaving..wil b missing him alot..alot..after he hv gone there..the chances we meet n chat wil b least..more least..he is the one i mention alwiz..the HE ..he say tat we r fren..he's good fren..he appreciate wat i hv did 4 him..helping him whenever he need my help..n as i noe..i nvr rejected his request..i try my best to make his life easier..he did worry bout me wen im lost..i mean during the appeal result out..he pho me n comfort me..tats reli help me..he teach me alot..he is the 1st guy teach me alot of things..to b frank, i was scare of guys last time..cz im from a gal's school..i don hv muc guy frenz..so when i go to f6..is sumthing reli scare me..they hv to sit bside me..hv to talk wt them..alot of things..but he is the one save me..save me from tat condition..he change me alot..he's a nice guy..i seldom wear sweater..but i wil wear it when i feel cold..but for him..when i wear it tats mean im sick..n he wil keep asking whether im sick..a caring guy..we r in the same tuition centre..there's once he scare i got no transport..he ask me to follow him..he n his frenz is driving..bring me along..but usually i go there by myself..
the other one...another mr. HE..we noe each not reli long actually..a few months onli..we start a relation..i noe him at my work place..now he is my ex bf..when we break tat time..i reli sad..but the sadness i hv.. i cant explode it out..reli sad..all inside the heart..no1 i can express to..i tot i can let this go..but i cant..i don understand y this is happening..now he alwiz show out himself whenever i on9..ever i noe is nth..but it make me think back..when i saw his name..i wil get depress again..
both of them..they did lighten up my life b4 but later wat happened is a tragedy..

Thursday, July 26, 2007

where should i go??

where should i go??
now im waiting the time pass..
wait to enter uni nxt year..
tats wat hv been decided..
however things actually hvn settle yet..
im working at the moment..
im working wit my ex boss again..
as wine promoter again..
but my heart telling me tats not the job i wana work..
i hv promised to work on the event day..
4 the information..
im working at jusco..
jusco at ipoh..
jusco hv jusco's member day..
i was ask back to help on tat day..
so i promised ..
but sumthing happened..
this happened after i promise to work til end of this month..
sumthing make me sad..
i wana leave tat job..
however i hv promised my boss..
n i hv to work til end of this month..
quite a suffer to me..
i don wana broke my promise..
btw this is not the main prob..
the prob is..
the job im working now..
i reli hv no interest to cont anyway after end of this month..
n i won go back to this work..
so im looking 4 a job..
im wonder whether i should go there or there..
is either spore or back to genting..
but which one i should choose..
each of it hv the pints there..
if go spore..
1st of all of cz the salary is better..
double paid then here..
environment better..
ppl cant smoke everywhere..
i hate ppl smoke..
then i reli wana go sum place else then ipoh..
don wan stay at ipoh anymore..
even my family n most of my frenz r in ipoh..
but outside there is sumthing waiting me..
but if reli work at spore..
i need to find a place to stay..
even i hv relative n frenz there..
but they don hv space 4 me..
so i hv to rent a room outside..
a room there cost muc..
summore is reli a new place 4 me..
they use mandarin n english..
im not a chinese educated ..
not reli fluet in mandarin..
in eng 4 me is ok onli..
however if i go genting..
im use to tat place..
i hv been working there b4..
n i do hv frenz there too..
however at there the salary wil not lik spore..
different alot..
double of it..
but at genting they provide room 4 u..
summore at genting..
is near to kl..
i din mean ipoh..
there is a fren wil accompany me if im going to genting..
so should i go spore..
or genting..
the entertainment world..
where should i go??
any1 can tell me..
i cant make my mind..

Monday, July 16, 2007

hope tat end wit disappointment..

on 14th of July is a worst day to me..
early in the morning there's sumthing happened to me oledi..
but i face it calm..
hwever things din end..
it cont..
i was being inform tat the result is out..
the appeal result..
the answer tat hv been waiting so long..
suspose to b the nxt day the result out..
n i check the result through sms once i noe bout it..
pretty scare to open the msg at 1st..
reli scare..
but i hv to open it..
n read it..
it was written lik this..
DUKACITA Anda Tidak Berjaya ditawarkan ke IPTA.
after reading it..
i still feel ok..
i better trust the net result..
so i surf net to check it..
is hard to get in..
many ppl r busying to view tat website..
while waiting 4 the website..
i sms him..
telling him the news..
the result is out..
n at last i get to the website..
damn..
they hvn updated the website yet..
couldnt check..
so angry tat time..
they should done as they noe the result is out..
then later..
later i view it again..
is there..
i jz need to enter my ic no, specific it n my 'angka giliran'..
n the result wil b there..
in front of my screen..
n the answer i get..
is stil the same..
same answer...
helping him check the result..
same thing happened..
i was so down tat time..
he pho me asking hw??
i told him same thing happened on me...
him ask me not to b so sad..
i say they don wan us..
one day they wil regret, regret for not letting us in..
then i cont talking wt my frenz through msn..
topic is bout the result..
im stil fine tat time..
stil can control my feeling..
jz feel unfair..
abit of headache..
later he msg me again..
i told him b4 tat i might go working if cant get in..
the msg was advising me to cont study n not to work 1st..
he believe i could earn more then i can rite now..
i wish i could reply him..
but i don noe hw to answer him..
no longer he called me..
i cant control the tears in my eyes..
suddenly i could feel there is sum1 out there is caring me..
when i need this person..
he told me alot of things..
advising me wat i could do..
i told him the difficulties im hving..
he understand it..
at last there is sum1 understand wat im thinking..
feeling tat im not alone..
not being left out..
being drop by them
but later im ok...
feel better after saying sumthing hired inside but wishing sum1 understand..
now i should start plan wat i should do the nxt step..
going to work or..
study..
if study..
where should i choose..
if work..
where should i go..
spore or back to genting??
where??
alot to think of..
i wish i could go wit him..
but i cant..
alot of things to decide..
new life wil start..
the most important..
how am i going to tell my parent..
don noe how to let them noe this..
but anyway i feel better after talking wit my frenz..
thanks to all the comfort n advises they gv..
if in my life without u all..
i wonder what could happened to me..
thanks guys n gals..


Sunday, July 1, 2007

world full wit love..

wat should i start wit..

erm..

bout wat recently happened to me..

i jz back from genting tis april..

i was working there..

is fun working there..

i was working at genting palace..

an restaurant..

near the casino in genting resort..

after 3 months..

then resign coming back to ipoh, my hometown..

rest a month then work again..

as a wine promoter at a mall..

jaya jusco..

noe nothing about wine at 1st..

but now ok jor lo..

work 4 2 months jor ma..

then now i decided to resign again..

1st i tot coming back to ipoh to wait to enter uni..

but wat happened is tat i unsuccessfully get in..

so appeal..

waiting is wat i can do..

the only things i can do..

the appeal make my life so so bc..

wen i noe tat i wasnt successfully get in..

my whole world was lik destroyed..

then..

lucikly all my frenz were by my side..

they comfort me..

make me feel better..

thanks to all my frenz..

to him too..

ever he din did muc to me..

but all the smile n the msg he sent..

light up my world..

thanks..

even sumtime or everytime..

he trouble me alot..

but i don mind..

cz he is a nice guy..

a guy to protect..

a guy that so careless..

a guy tat need sum1 to backup for him..

haha..

he's a nice, cute guy..

not regret to noe him..

haha..

suddenly go story bout him de..

aiyo..

haha..

pai xie..

pai xie is a word of my fren alwiz use..

wen i jz noe him..

the way we meet..

haha..

but he don ever remember hw we noe each..

bad guy..

heartless..

haha..

but its so funny..

don noe hw to tell ..

haha..

he is a funny guy..

cheer ppl's life..

gentleman..

teach me muc..

sumtime lik little kid..

budak budak de..

but age older then me..

is a helpful guy..

wenever u nd a help..

he is the one..

tis man eat muc muc oso tat skinny de..

don noe wat kind of ppl he is?

haiz..

sum how..

knowing them reli delight my world..

whole world..

wen ever i need them..

there's alwiz them by side..

tats y sumtime don b so pessimistic..

world is full of love..

love doesnt mean by between couples.

but oso among family..

best frenz..

old frenz..

classmate..

anyone..

even is not close..

jz noe each..

the world is full wit hope..

if there's reli no1 there bside u..

jz find me..

im willing to listen to it..

haha..