4th April 2012

been sometime i did not write blog anymore..
mayb cz too lazy ba..
recently keep on alwis saw Sam Chin shadow around the restaurant..
but in a second i realise n tell myself he oledi left..
heard he go to australie..
honestly if anyone ask me whether i still lik him..
i wouldn't able to give a firm ans..
whenever i saw him previously will keep on refreshing my brain..
it will keep on making me emo and remind me of the hapiness we got..
but when i got to noe he is leaving of cz tats reli hurt n sad news to me..
cz i would not noe when will i see him again.

other then tat, recently pretty alot of things happened other then Sam Chin..
elbert and vicki cheah is a pair of couple now..
thier match doesnt gv a postive reflect to me...
instead of blessing them, i feel weird and thrs a feeling i cant explain..
this make me uncomfortable for weeks..
even till not i don feel convince wt it..
some of the ppl around doesnt und why i react lik tat..
me myself oso cant und why..
but i noe if this condition cont, it will destroy the relation i build wt bert..
i don wish too..but i reli donnoe wat can i do..
jz cant accept both of them in front of me..
haiz..

on the 1st april, total 9 of us went to universal studio..
it should b a hapi and exciting day..
but i don feel so..
i hv been waiting for the day to go together but the end i don enjoy muc of it..
feel more lik alone going to theme park..
lik a stranger in the group..
don think will go out again..

21st feb

Its a lazy day to me..
I woke up abit later then usual..
Wt a lazy mood i went out earlier to buy my contact lense..
at first susposed to meet elbert for lunch, but feel moody..
Plus got to but my lenses..
Everything like normal, lazy evening til i go for my break..
i saw SamChin was sitting at canteen for dinner..
i pretended din see him..i was sitting at another tbl alone..
When i almost done, i saw ah haun walking out of the canteen..
Hv no idea y, i feel the pain inside..this long time din feel lik tat.
i saw him again at locker, pretended nth..i act act wana pinch him..
he seem veli scace of me..
At the restaurant, SamChin act lik usual when he nd help someone..
Middle of dinner operation, shirlina asked me for computer password..
its SamChin tat needed it aft trying to figure the password for half an hour..
Then end of the day, went home..
In the mrt, thrs three nice guys giving the seat once i enter the mrt..
They could see how tiring my day.
felt abit paiseh, but tats sweet..