ben

today after wrok three hours..
i went to mcd wt judion, su, ivoen, ivan n ronald..
they told me wat happened to ben..
i reli don believe wat he did..
anyway, feel abit of disappointment of wat he do..
for so hard get to this position now..
the asst manager..
not even a month in this post..
this happened to him..
he get promoted at 1st of april..
now hvn end of april le..
this incident get to noe on wed which is my off day..
no wonder i din see him today le..
hope everything wil b fine to him..

expo n orientation..

on wed which is my off day..
i went to expo where a place tat hv a huge hall..
at there got a event called food n hotel fair..
sumthing sound lik tat which happened once in two years..
i go thr wt chay ting..hwever not reli enjoy going wt her..
she seem not interested on everything..
i reach thr around 1130am then around 3sumthing i n chay ting back..
but i return back thr after tat..
cz stil got many things i wana noe thr..
thr hv chocolate,sugar,milk,juices,wine,container,n many many more..
reli interesting thr..
got chef from different hotel n country tat present n competition..
then around 5sumthing almost 6pm i leave thr..
then i went to met cheng at boon keng's mcd..
we talk bout many things lik her's bf, work, on wed plan..
then i reli tired tat day..
cz i carry many papers tat i get from expo..
reach home around 10pm le..


the nxt day was my 4th day of orientation..
no1 tell me tat we can wear casual n smart clothes on tat day..
at the end me n chay ting from oscar wear uniform..
btw i tot i was late on tat day cz usually office hour wil b 9 to 5
the bus reach suntec oledi 9am le..
then when i get to work they told me it start at 930am..
omg..i was so rush walk so fast to get work thr..
then, we talk n sit,discuss,hi tea..break n watever la..
then the whole day lik le..
after the orientation..
i went to oscar,the restaurant i work..
i go thr return the expo pass to iz n pei see..
when i wan return the pass to pei see.
i came across the bar n hidayat ask me taste the cocktail he make..
thr were there kind of it..
then i try le..return the pass le..
when i wan go back, i make a stop at cyber thr..
i met sunny thr..then we talk bout the expo things lo..
n here i wan to congratulation him tat he win the competition at expo..
after tat i went home..lik usually wat i do..
then sleep early le..

tired..

recently donnoe y..
feel so tired..
my shoulder, my back n my neck nd a veli good massagge..
almost 9weeks been here le..
today work as casual labour from 12 to 3pm..
cz the lunch time is so bz..
then cont back at 5pm to 1am as my normal stiff..
tomolo i plan to go to the spore expo..
where thr hv many different country they show the product n wines..
oso do hv some competition from chef..
then cont back this week wit whole week 5pm to 1am..
but onli different is on thur i wil hv my orietation again ..
so i come to work at 9am to 5pm..
sun hv oledi plan go meet cheng le..
hem..is lik wat tek seng told last time..
the life here is all about work..
nth muc to do..but nvm..
this wont last long..
after i get my confirmation letter..
i wil take leave go back ipoh for some rest..
then onli back for the battle of my life for futher study..
gambateh oooooo!!!!!

why not him?? is there any1 better then him??

recently his shadow come back to my life..
tats one day i read a book..
it remind me of him..
the way he treat me n wat reli i could feel..
but the conclusion they gv me is tat he try to fool around..
im lik a backstage tat whenever he nd sum1..
tats me there for him..
when he alone n he wana prove tat he is not..
there he come to me..
everything explained lik tat..
but i don reli believe he is tat kind of human..
could any1 tell me wat happened le?
or the ans has from the begining is thr, jz tat i din accept it??
i tot i reli let things go..
me n him can b fren, a good fren..
but wil it reli happen??
he is lik a ideal mr right to me..
mr right tat stand in front of me but nth happened between us..
sumtime kind of miss those days wt him..
the days we studied, played, worked n everything wt him..
he got everything i wan..
the knowledge he has..
the humour he has..
the joke he has..
the care he has..
the charm he has..
the spirit he has..
the maturity he has..
the gentleman he has..
the hardwork he has..
the single everything he has..
hemm..
do u noe who is this mr right??
hahaha..sum1 tat change me alot..
sum1 teach me alot of things..
sum1 tat care me alot..
sum1 tat und me wat i wan without i nd to say out..
sum1 who did many 1st time wt me..(don think the*%$#@%)
is thr any1 i could find better then him??
where n when??
or wil i???
mayb yea tats sum1 could replace him(alex fong lik sun)
for those who noe him, u wil noe wat i mean..
but is there any hope between us??
isit silly to wait??

any1 lik him or lik this song???
try listen this song..is so sweet..
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/PFapnwdzJYw/

the 8th weeks in conrad

this the 8th weeks i hv been work at conrad which at oscar department..
everything stil goes great even sumtime i find sumthing not as i expect n doesnt go as wat i hope so..
sumtime got a little things to deal wt senior..
sumtime feel abit tired of working..
sumtime expectation doesnt reach there..
sumtime got a little trouble communication wt other ppl..
sumtime got disagreement wt sum1..
but all this is jz a small little deal..
everything still goes great after tat day..
there's sum organisation..
the senior asst manager hope i take part of it..
as a runner or watever tat i interested..
i hv think of it but scare i din manage to do well everything..
stil hvn confirm whether to join in or not..
but as my asst manager said..
gv it a try n make it as a pratice n hv fun wt it..
hemm..should i join in??
then bout the chef from kitchen..
this few nite he work midnite n it come across tat i wil meet him when he come to work..
tat reli bother me..
i start feel uncomfortable wt him..
even start feel don wan to see him..
i could feel he is gving me sum prob tat i don wish..
even i donnoe wats the prob is..
hemm..

14th of april

walau..is a =.=" day i hv..
things tat happened reli make me feel blur blur de..
i oso don reli noe wat happened to me..
hemm..hw should i begin this..
i went to jb wt a guy..he is chef at our restaurant..
he is 25 this year n his position is cook1 at kitchen..
he ask me out n go jb..so i agree..
cz i tot of be fren is ok de..
then..he treat me lik his gf..=.="
n i lik nth de..feel nth de..
tats the worst..
he hold my hand, put his hand over my shoulder n sleep at his shoulder(cz too tired)
i noe i shouldnt let this happened..
but i was so blur n donnoe hw to react n let it go..
so so so stupid la me..
then at the end he ask me whether can b wit him..
i donnoe hw to say it..
i don feel secure wt him..
summore he is a scorpion so i noe wat he is thinking..
tats make me more scare..
summore he lik to flirt flirt..tats make more not secure wt him..
then he stil ask me wats the qualification to my bf n bla bla bla..
i told him the things n hw i think of it..
hwever i can feel the prob is his eng is not tat good n bring to communication prob..
the day going out wt him doesnt make hapi or sad..jz feel nth n normal..
i told him tat i hope we can b fren back..
cz i think everything start too fast..
tats wat i learned nvr start sumthing to fast..u wil regret n it may end up fast too..
he said is impossible to do so as wat we did was lik a couple le..
but i reli don wish too n he said is all depend to me..
hemm..wat should i do??

the 3rd day of midnite

on the way i went to work...
i called thean seng to wish him hapi bday as he oso same bday as gabriel..
then reach here change le n on9 awhile..
after tat tonite jz onli me n judion..
sheila, the another trainee off le..
even least a person..
we still managed to finished...chay ting told tat actually not ms1 who lik him..but is he lik ms1 le..
but i don reli care it..
watever he wan then choose lo..
everything as he wish..
nxt mon i off n i wil work 5pm to 1 am..
veli tired..feel reli sleepy..

1st of midnite stiff..

wat a horrible 1st mid nite stiff i hv..
1st i when thr wt full full stomach cz go eat buffet wt ivan, jieun , elbert n his gf..
we eat at edward place ( orchard hotel)
then work thr..judion not here..
clean the coffee's machince no brush..
the brush missing..
then veli free donnoe wat to do..
i make the best coffee myself..
actually is espresso,,
ichelle stay to back up us..
the 1st nite i work oledi got 6pax le..
then whole nite blur blur de..
also donnoe wat can do..
do abit this n tat lo..
then chat wt chef abit..
later on then the time pass ok de..
saw him this morning..ivan said i look so mess..
cz my hair la..
aikss..
hemm..then when wan back tat time...
judion onli appear le..
=.="
after tat he went back lo..
so tonite will see him le..
after work din back home straightly but go on9 awhile..
chat wt seng gor n wai keong..
then later i feel not well so back home le..
so back home , i straightly go sleep n til now..

7th n 8th of april

on 7th which is judion's bday..
n its oso my off day to..
suspose going out wt chay ting n elbert but cz onli me n elbert is going to sing k..
so we cancel it le..
then i went out wt yee ko which is my cousin..
we talk bout wat recently happened n h's everything..
hahaha.he said alot man..but i und y this happened..
then later on we went n eat mcd..
after tat he wana buy sumthing for her gf..
so we went in a jewelry shop n choose sumthing lo..
he bought a ring for himself n a leg bralet for her..
n i bought a necklace for 40 sumthing..
1st time buy sumthing so expensive to myself de at spore..
then later on he got to go back accompany his gf le..
so i cont shop alone or can said walk alone
then i went in each shop n see n see...
i do buy sumthing if i feel is useful..
then at nite go back n eat dinner..
until this morning nth special happened..
jz tat i nd to find a time n go apply a member card from a libary..
so tat i can borrow some books..

5th n 6th of april..

yesterday n today i oso the runner again..
then..early yesterday, wat happened was ben gv me his hand to kiss to show tat i got use lipstick..=.=" instead of kiss, i try to bite him..hehehe..
then on floor but later on after lunch b runner..
then veli free n bored so i clean the runner side n everything especially the coffee machince..
hehehe..ben oso helped me to clean up..
nth muc special happened..after ben went back at 230pm..
cz he wil hv exam paper on mon..
so he got back n ask me remind ms1 bout the napkin..but i forgotten le..=X
then i b casual labour at nite from 6 to 10..
in the middle i went take korean food wt chay ting..
then i join ivan wt another collegue at level2..
ivan bring along his wife which look reli pretty..
then in the conversation, ivoen said tat actually ben is not a good person..
from the way he look n treat gals..
hahaha..she is telling hw ben is..
anyway.she mayb rite..
hwever everything jz make it natural..
then back work nite..
i work at terrance..the 1st time i swt working thr..
then around 930pm, iz said i can go back cz not muc to do..
so i back at 930pm n stay at hotel awhile n take bath..
roland ask me why i look abit lik "sa sa" n no energy..
so i told him im lik tat de lo..
he said gals mz b gentle de..
but in my opinion if gals gentle wil get bully de..
so mz b abit strong strong de..
n today ben off..whole day reli bored..
tomolo off..plan go sing k wt chay ting n elbert..
but all stil in th eplan..hvn confirm..
n later on tues i wil start my another life..
bcz i wil changed stiff now to midnight..

4th of april

this morning i bcome runner again..
n nvr the less at lunch me oso the runner..
today din talk muc wt ben..n ms1 oso off today...
but at lunch suddenly veli bz..
then he come in n help up..
the 3rd day i saw he wear the same tie..
btw in the morning we don hv briefing n change it to after work..
so during briefing my name was mention bout the guest comment..
i get two star star..
roland congratulation me at the kicthen b4 i wnet out..
then i reach the star from ben...
hehhe..
then when roland come n join us for the briefing..
he..shake my hand to congratulation me again..
hahha..think wat in my brain cross by..
u guess ba..
then nth muc happened..
i on9 n on9 again at company's cyber..
wait for partick to let me noe when he finished work so we go take dinner together..
=.="
start feel abit boring le..
judion told me tat he wont b around from tomolo til nxt tues..
mean wed onli i wil see him..
hemm mean the present onli reach him on wed..
judion oso emntion me in front his wife..
said i veli cute lik a kid..
=.=" wat la him..
tomolo see him then sun cant see..
=.="

3rd of april

today is my off day..
whole day stay at home..din go anywhere..
yesterday is cheng's bday..
she spend the time wt her bf..
early in the morning is go work yesterday..
i was a bit rush cz late wake up..
then reach there..lik normal..
changed my uniform n went to canteen for abit of breakfast..
i saw ben thr..he was hving breakfast wt pei see,su n kartini..
then he saw me looking for a place to sit..
he gave his sit to me..
then he said the chair is hot cz he sat ong time..
then i asked can he change for me??
haha..he asked do he nd to feed m for brakfast..
i tell him i don mind tat..
then after breakfast i went up for briefing..
my buddy, judion mc le..
morning n lunch i oso b the runner..
hving fun oso b runner..
when breakfast almost end, david tao come for breakfast..
haha..chay ting tell bout tat..
then i decided to get his autograft tat day..
hehe..so i went to ask peter whether can i do so..but cant find him..i onli saw ben..
=.=' so scare ask him ..so i ask su..
su said is ok de..but make sure i ask nicely la..
then i went back to kitchen..
ask chay ting to let me noe when he almost finished his breakfast..
so i went n get his autograft n after finished..
i realised tat ben look at me..=.='
omg..damn damn scare me lik hell man..
then go back to kitchen..
ben ask me whether im veli free..
then walau..my heart lik jump out n drop at the floor man..
actually i time i almost everything de..
then went for break..eat wt chay ting n merial..
then at lunch melinda suddenly at kitchen..
i think she is helping the floor ba..
then she make the coffee n everything la..
but look at her i reli feel funny de..
haha..cant descride muc..
btw melinda is our company f&b director..
then after work..there is a team's member day..
we went thr n so do ben..
then after the end n chay ting take another lift to go to uniform department..
ms.1 followed us..n ask y we take different way.
but tat time i was talking wt chay ting so we din reply her..
walau..my feeling tat time so good..haha..
i noe is a bit of childish..but i reli don feel good wt her..
then me n chay ting go shop..
cz next mon is judion's bday..
i bought him a lighter..as the info..
he smoke de..
in this few days..me n chay ting say alot about ms.1..
n i found not onli me doesnt hv good feel to her but oso some other ppl..
watever, im stil im..whether is her or me..
he hv the right to choose..
but i do feel the big gap between us..
whether is couple or single..
i wil accept wat god gvn to me...
i date patrick tomolo after work..
this morning wake up do nth then wape the present for judion then on9 til now..
hemm..feel kind of boring..