singaporean mindset

im not sure wat make me hapi now..
i kind of fake in everything i smile n laugh at now
i start to complaint everything n every1
i hate being lik tat..
i cant believe some1 telling that she cant b hostess, she will die if she stand thr..
however she is still breathing til now..
n the onli things motivate her to stand thr is bcz she wana to wear the cheongsam..
=.="
wat a stupid mind she hv..
this woman reli make me feel so embaresss as she is elder then me but keep telling me she cant this n that..
its bcz she is the youngest in family make her spoilt..
should thanks her parent??
carrying a tray oso tell me cant.. i will teach..
teach le oso donwan to listen, nvr take in to the heart..
she make me shame as she is a gal..
then the other one, he tellme he cant b cashier..
=.=" telling me he cant as he don hv the mood..
i don care u got mood or not..
given a task then do it..
if he wan, b the COD then take in charge of manning..
i don mind b the cashier..
the most unreasonable reason was telling me today i don hv mood to b tomolo cashier..
today no mood mean tomolo oso no mood?
who will care u got mood anot..
somemore push to other ppl to do..
y mz this sad man alwis b the cashier??
i reli angry le..
i was told im not lik the msian mindset as to b lazy..
im sad if one day im lik tat..
i was force not to b lazy..
i cant bear to stop hardworking a min..
there's so many things waiting for me..
compare to many ppl in my age.
i was told more mature mindset then other..
i believe the teenager life i hv been make me to b mature..
i hv to be lik this..
don u think is very tiring??
yes, its very tired to be the one alwis think maturily,work hard,keep on force to move further..
its thr anyone to talk to when needed??