he's back..

im working today..
suddenly i received a msg n it was him..
he's back..
he's asking me out!!
but not onli me la..his fren oso wil go along..
i noe his fren~actually is our classmate too..
but i cant go..hv work tomolo!!
veli disappointed..
long time din see him le..
n mostly he wil bz wt his study..
now he's free coming back..
but cant out..
don noe when can meet him le..
hope i can see him..
this guy is the guy who alwiz i mention in my blog..
erm..
wat to say anymore??
the too personal story..
don wan tell u here!!
haha!!

being forced..

haiz..being forced by my fans..
to write blog..
my blog nice to read le..
no la..joking la..haha..
actually onli 2ppl ask me la..
but this 2nvr leave comment after reading!!
i wil write wat happened to me this few days
i was working at morning til evening..
ppl there nice n funny..
i learned alot from a guy who teach me since i the 1st day ~ kent
he forgive me wat i did wrong every morning..haha..same thing!!
dreaming early morning!! lol
but veli patient to me..
got 2 more ppl same name wt me there..
waiter ah mun, kitchen ah man & the cashier ah mun(me)..
came a new manager..nice!!
but do hv the no good place..but i noe she is trying to make things work better..
tomolo still hv training..aiyo..
wat she wana teach i oledi can guess 80%
most of wat she wana teach i oledi noe jor..
4 the serving..nth do wt me as cashier..=.="
back from home jz on9 awhile then nd to sleep le..
even time lik passed so fast a day..
but is meaningful..hapi everyday..
din think so muc anymore..
pratice my brain again..haha..
saw alot of ppl i noe at the place i work..
frenz, ex-schoolmate, ex-workmate,teachers,...alot..
good is the ans for this few days..

1st day of work..

woh!!
wake up early..so long din wake up early le..
then go work..1st day of working..
learn alot
i work as cashier..
quite tired..
but enjoy it..
ppl there ok de..
i oso saw my classmate there..
came wt her bf n sum frenz..
miz her..
tonite got to sleep early le..
his name keep on appear today..
ppl stil relate him wt me..
hw le?

he called..

this morning..
suddenly he called me..
asking whether i received a letter from uum anot..
he said he's back now..
back to take some documents..
wt a foreign fren..
we talk awhile bout hw's his life n everythings..
tats all..
erm..
wat happen le?

the guy who love you..

i read this at frenster..
veli meaningful..haha
i do drop a few tears when read it!!
hope he appear..
this is wat written..

"The guy who love you ,
if he can't always see you,
he will try to make himself busy,
for not to have any time to remember you,
because he knew,
if he did,
he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.

The guy who love you,
can't tell you the reason why he love you.
he only knew that,
in his eyes,
you are the only one.

The guy who love you,
seldom praise you ,
but in his heart,
you are the best,
only he know it.

The guy who love you,
will scold or complaint if you didn't reply his message but others,
because he cares.

The guy who love you ,
Only drop his tears in front of you,
when you try to wipe his tears,
you are touching his heart ,
the heart which beat for you.

The guy who love you ,
will remember every word u said ,
even its accidentally.
and he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who love you,
will not give any promise that easily,
because they don't want to break the promise,
they want you to believe him and
they want to give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

The guy who love you,
always tell you not to think too much,
because they already plan it for you,
he want to give u the best life in the future,
he want to give you a suprise,
belive him that he can do it.

The guy who love you,
will go to airport to fetch you,
he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you darling like what you expect.
but he will carry your ludgage and ask you
" why are you becoming that thin within two days?"
with his sincere heart.

The boy who love you,
will listen quietly to you,
when you are mad,
and when you finished,
he will said,
you still got class tomorrow,
sleep earlier with smile.

The boy who love you,
don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry,
but he will sent a message to you after few hours,
if you ask him why he call that late,
he will said,
when you are angry,
my explanation are all rubbish.
But when you calm down,
my explanation will only really works.

The boy who love you,
always call you little kid,
but everytime he want to make a big decision,
he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who love you,
don't like little toy like teddy bear,
but he will always put the bear you gift him at his bed.

The guy who love you,
while quarelling,
he will apologize uncontrollably,
althought you are the one who's wrong,
and later,
he will sent a message to you with
" baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself "

The guy who love you,
while really miss you,
he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait you stupidly under your apartment.
but he never knows ,
what he bought is daisy,
but doesn't matter,
because in his heart,
that's roses.

GALs in crush, love,
do you think the guy who's beside you do really love you?
if yes, wish you have the happiest day ever after."

when it wil come le tat day??
sum where at the calender..
hehe..i think soon ge le..
haha..hope so..

i saw her !!

today is the most bz day i hv in this 2weeks..
cz pass this 2weeks..
i oso stay at home..
doing nth special..
today i wake up by mum..=="
haha..cz yesterday sleep late le!!
then go out wt mum le..
reach my sis's school to fetch her..
don noe where gone le this fellow!!
go search her whole school..
onli see the bag..==" human don noe where gone le..
atlast found her le..get scold from me..
haha..veli fierce le me..
then go to my granny's home..
onli me n my sis..
mizz my granny so muc le..
she is my 1st love..haha..
veli important to me de..
reach there i help do everything..
she jz sit down relax..haha..
i teach my cousin (onli kindergarden)
cz my granny veli 'luo hei' when teach her de..
done everything 4 her..
cz now she oledi old le..(but the most beautiful woman in my heart)
should rest more..if i afford..
let her go 4 vacation..
mayb go china?? i noe she wana go there again..
or shanghai?? (but 1st mz learn my mandarin le)
any place oso nvm..i wil bring her de..
love her so so muc..^^
then bout time to fetch my youngest sis le..
so i back lo..at my sis's school..
i saw another person!!
she is..haha..
she is my old classmate..
she, me, n another gal(called ratna)
3 of us alwiz fight in class during f4 &f5
haha..the fight i mean is..
not pulling hair scalp the face..
is fight 4 the top three la..
once exam come we wil fight for the top 3..
hehe..each race got represent..
i represent chinese..
she represent indian..(btw her name is shalines)
ratna represent malay..
hehe..
then wt veli hapi hapi mood back home..
then veli good mood chat wt frenz..
then write blog..
haha..then hope get sweet sweet dream oo..
haha..^^
veli hapi today..yea!!
one more good news is..
my salary out jor!!haha..

is time..

yesterday it seem lik i quite depress..
but today after a fren told me sumthing..
n after i went to view his blog..
suddenly i feel sumthing different..
reli thankful to him..
he let me noe tat is time i hv to move forward..
i hv been staying this place 4 so long..
n is time 4 me to move on..
sum place tat i should be..
the past jz let it be ba..
is no use alwiz staying wt them onli..
life still goes on..
there still muc more things in front waiting 4 me..
n not onli move forward but oso changing..
as human growth, they wil change..
so do i..not onli from outside..
but inner too..thanks 4 my frenz tat being through so muc wt me..
n is time 4 me to walk it by myself..
soli 4 being so selfish no letting u all go..
finally take care n keep in touch u guys n gals..

no title

actually i don reli noe wat i wana talk bout this time..
jz suddenly feel wana write sumthing..
wondering around, looking around, but not hanging around..
damn boring this few days cz staying at home..
when im free i wil think n think..
or u can say i lik daydreaming..
or u can say i lik to imagine..
my brain wil keep on thinking n thinking..
i alwiz think back the past..
everything at the past..
the moment wt my frenz during school time..
the moment wt my ex during the time we were together..
every of my frenz do bring a mean to me..
they r so important to me tat i believe i wont 4get them..
if i do tats mean u din mean any then as a stranger..
i appreciate every single of my frenz..
n i alwiz wish tat the feed back..
not onli my frenz but every1 tat i noe..
as i noe i try my best to treat every1 the most nice way i can..
but i do hv the time not being good..
cz i still a normal gal..
a gal tat wil get heart broken..
a gal tat wil get hurt..
a gal tat wil cry..
a gal tat wil depress..
i do feel wana share this wt my frenz..
but do they hv the time 4 me??
do they willing to sit down n listen??
do they feel im irritating??
im not sure of it..
sumtime i don wana trouble my frenz..
i noe every1 hv their own things to do..
they do hv their own prob to settle..
they do hv more important things to do then listening to me..
as i offen found my frenz bz 4 their exam or their works..
so i started to learn a way 4 me to express my feeling..
which is writing it down..
it is lik a way im telling every1 wat happening to me..
n when they r free to drop by n hv a few sentences on..
cz to me..frenz should share..
sharing is important between a frenship...
the more u share the closer relationship they hv..
cz sharing mean the happiness or sadness happening to u recently..
from there oso we will noe each better..
n thats the way hw to b closer fren..
for example if im not hapi at the moment..
a fren came n gving me sum opinions n suggestions to solve the prob im hving..
it might not solve my prob but the important thing is..
u r being by my side n walk wt me to cross my difficult time..
together we grow , together we cry , together we laugh..
n tats the memories we hv..
wt tat all memories wil stay wt us until the end of our life..
we cant noe when r we leaving this world..
make this world a better place to live..
do concern ppl around us..
do believe ppl around us..
do treat them lik ur loved one..
but do this world reli lik tat??
n y is there sum ppl is telling lies??
when the other is trusting them without any suspect..
y is there sum ppl hurting another human being??
when the other is being so kind n bless to u..
y is there sum ppl playing around??
when the other is trying to help indeep..
n y is this happening??
can any1 answer..
isit bcz of they r selfish??
not caring wat others is think then their own happiness..
as long as they r living happily..
they doesnt caring whether wat r they doing is hurting sum1 who reli loved them..
n tat hurt may reli hurt..taking a long time to recover..
or sumtime is may not cure 4ever..stay there..
the hurt may keep the person staying all nite..
or tiring herself by crying to sleep every nite..
acting lik nth wrong wt her..jz stay normal..
but she is jz hiding sumthing inside where no1 noe its..
cz she don noe where to share it..
n who to share it wt??
so don ever ever hurt sum1..
the pain tat suffer may reli leave a deep scar 4ever..
is lik hoping 4 a relationship so long to begin..
where believe both do feel the same way..
but suddenly things changed..
the hope n ambition tat u hv put all hv destroyed..
trying to 4get it..trying to let it go..
seeing lik normal..
but whose noe tat every9 the way to sleep is tiring cry to sleep..
every single words tat relate sum to the cruel person..
or any fwd msg tat received was the cruel person sent to u b4..
those is lik killing u slowly n slowly..
the feeling is lik twisting lemon on the wounds..
trying many ways to 4get it..
after sumtime believing tat actually could accept back being as a fren..
n by time goes on..
then only realise tat it wasnt working..
it still hurt, pain n torturing..
so nvr try to hurt any1 around u..cz is reli suffer..
love them wt u heart, care them when they nd u..
if there r sumthing u wana share, look 4 sum1 u feel comfortable wt..
if there is no1 4 u..n u don mind..
u r please to find me..im free to b ur listener..
a quiet listener if u which too..
at last..love every1 around u while u still hv the chances..

wana find sumthing!!

i think there is sumthing lost in my world now!!
sumthing is missing..
wat i lost n i need to find it back..
is it the time??
is it the work??
is it a person??
im not reli sure rite now!!
but most important tat is..
im damn boring at home now..
cz im jobless now!!
so to settle tat..
i got to get a job..
yea for the information..
im not going to genting anyway..
cz after 2weeks as they ask me to wait..
they din even inform , call , or anything letting me noe..
so mostly they don wan me le..
is ok de..nvm..i wont die de!!
but jz feel soli 2 a fren..
as she tot we r going to work there together..
n wat she did is she apply do her training there too..
oo so i hope she wont b upsad bout it..
soli..alot of soli to u le..(u noe who u r)
then i need to find a job as im not going up to the mountain..
wat am i looking oso not reli sure actually!!
but mostly of cz sumthing tat wt high paid..
then im interested in it too..
im quite of boring working as promoter le..
looking sumthing different..
mayb promoter oso can but other things..
mayb a clothes promoter..
so when i buy new clothes there is a staff price!!
hehe..y not?? is oso a good idea!!
so do a fren tell me a farmasi got a place..
but i stil hvn get any info bout it!!
n im still wondering where should i go..
no nd to worry bout the transport..
sumthing im interested..
where can meet alot of ppl de..
is there any job tat is lik tat??
haha..yea mayb got..but i hv to look for it..
sum where is hidden!!
i reli hope tat i can learn new things wt my new job!!
summore im feeling abit lonely..
cz i hv too muc time at home nowadays..
haha..reli boring..nth to do..
walk in walk out..eat sleep..
kacau there kacau here..kacau every1..
should i find a person..
a person to keep me away from loneliness..
where is this person??
feel wana sum1 to care alot..
not a kind of fren's care..sumthing else..
sumtime i do quite miss my ex..haha!!
wat happen to me?? =.="
mayb its not the time yet..
im not meeting the rite person..
so i hope the rite person wil soon appear in front of me..
but i still hope the one is him..
this few days im thinking back of him(not my ex la!!)
thinking back our past..wat happened between us..
imagine if tat time we were together..
hw could it b?? wat would it now??
is he stil my mr.right??
oo!! i hv too muc time to think this things le..
thinking sumthing wont turn back!!
thinking useless things..
better fast fast get a job le..
hehe...^^..then wont think so muc lo!!

miss him so muc !!

today atlast i get to install my antivirus programme..
but still hv sumthing to do summore..
don noe y after i install the antivirus programme..
everything seem lik work so slow..
even it is wat happening rite now..
anyway better then i hvn install tat antivirus programme..
then as my title said i miss him so muc..
actually i sent a msg to him yesterday..
cz is been a long time i din heard any news from him..
but he din reply me..
so i tot he might too bz to reply me..
or he might change his phn no..
jz looking 4 a reason y he wasnt replying the msg..
as i 4get this thing today..
suddenly he sent me a msg answering y he wasnt replying me yesterday..
he's telling that he is so bz recently..
even he is in kl rite now..
n so do sum of his frenz..
but he din even hv the chance to go anywhere..
so i ask him to take care himself..
as i noe he wil get sick once gving too muc stress to himself de..
feel abit worry bout him le..
after chat wt him awhile..
i started to miz him jor..
wat happened to me le..
this come back to me??
haiz..cannot de la!!