singaporean mindset

im not sure wat make me hapi now..
i kind of fake in everything i smile n laugh at now
i start to complaint everything n every1
i hate being lik tat..
i cant believe some1 telling that she cant b hostess, she will die if she stand thr..
however she is still breathing til now..
n the onli things motivate her to stand thr is bcz she wana to wear the cheongsam..
=.="
wat a stupid mind she hv..
this woman reli make me feel so embaresss as she is elder then me but keep telling me she cant this n that..
its bcz she is the youngest in family make her spoilt..
should thanks her parent??
carrying a tray oso tell me cant.. i will teach..
teach le oso donwan to listen, nvr take in to the heart..
she make me shame as she is a gal..
then the other one, he tellme he cant b cashier..
=.=" telling me he cant as he don hv the mood..
i don care u got mood or not..
given a task then do it..
if he wan, b the COD then take in charge of manning..
i don mind b the cashier..
the most unreasonable reason was telling me today i don hv mood to b tomolo cashier..
today no mood mean tomolo oso no mood?
who will care u got mood anot..
somemore push to other ppl to do..
y mz this sad man alwis b the cashier??
i reli angry le..
i was told im not lik the msian mindset as to b lazy..
im sad if one day im lik tat..
i was force not to b lazy..
i cant bear to stop hardworking a min..
there's so many things waiting for me..
compare to many ppl in my age.
i was told more mature mindset then other..
i believe the teenager life i hv been make me to b mature..
i hv to be lik this..
don u think is very tiring??
yes, its very tired to be the one alwis think maturily,work hard,keep on force to move further..
its thr anyone to talk to when needed??

22nd July 2010

i afraid one day im the one crazy instead of u..
today is my off..din plan muc for today..
suddenly felt lik going to LiLy's place but she wasnt thr..
then met bang bang in city hall then go to absinthe..
philippe wasnt in as thr's outside catering during lunch.
michael come back later n gv me a call..
while wait for them, we go to chinatown..
as usual, i went to my favorite dim sum..
we bought some clothes as well..
then return thr, chat wt michael n kelly awhile..
they told me after nxt year world gummit will resign.
feel so sad of it..
then i received call from him telling me that the result out..
everything its fine!! could hear that he's veli hapi with it..
me cheng bang n pat went to chinatown took our dinner..
i will rmb n one day wil bring him thr try it as well..reli tasty the food^^
he was hving a late dinner at chatterbox with his manager..
so might go home together, however he ask me go buy ticket to hv movie tonite.
but i was so angry n tired..
cz out for whole day, but he din und.
so i took a cab back to amk hub..
silly de me, reli go n check at hub the movie timing..
told him that the cinema closed..
he abit dissapointed, as he forgotten im off today n couldnt catch a movie..
hemm, i was abit sad, but after listen to him, i felt abit better..
wat happened to me..
jesslyne ar!!!!
reach home, i was reli tired, took a bath n staright to on9.
suddenly he called me, told me he reach home..
bla bla bla, wat happened during the dinner..
hows the manager behaving..
the conversation problem with the manager..
he told me alot..
i realise he will call me recently
last time he wont
then he will tell me alot of things..
he start to show the real him..
bla bla bla..
he even sound abit hapi when he noe we off on sun next week
he ask to meet for breakfast tomolo..
usually he will ask me to accommodate him..
but after he think twice, he will wakl to hub n hv breakfast wt me..
hemm..
he start to confue me again..
bring me up n down =.="

20 July 2010

had a veli late slp ytd due to keep watching drama..
this morning wake up veli tired..
should say this few days oso feel lazy n tired to wake up..
received ur call reli susprised me..
sort of adding some sweetness in the morning..
jz 2 days, i start wondering how r u?
went to work lik ytd with empty stomach..haha
tot today will b better, however still the same..
however this time a bit muc more better then previous.
rosley was in course training 5 taiwanese trainees.
however will stay til dinner..
he went home ealier,
siti not feeling well, some doc gave her 2 days mc..
today i proud, hostess coffee and crust captain incharge, cashier..
=.="
we are pack with 195cover with onli 4full timer,2trainees, 7tcc, but 1tcc go back at 7pm then 1 tcc go back at 1030pm..
donnoe how should it b descride...
i stay till 1pm plus to settle all the bills..
luckily the bills all ok..
rosley pula balik around 930pm..
not onli me,but lilian,bhet,anderson n nico oso stay to help setting up the restaurant..

18th july2010

today i wake up veli late..im veli tired..
reach home around 5am after drinking with lavina and siti.
however i still feel lik meeting him today.
we met up today around 330pm at hub.
he is starting work tomolo
he told me domething when we went to kbox.
im not sure whether i should hapi of it of not..
he told me something, a secret..
the moment i heard it, inside my heart was abit shocked but i still smile n comfort him..
after awhile, something running in my brain.
thats normal, but tats something in heart feel uncomfortable,confuse..
abit down but i hv to motivate him tat,its the past..it would b alrite..
got our dinner, manage to catch a movie together again..
actually i reli tired.. but if i don accompany him now.
i scared i cant in the future.
lik 4years ago,i still will b thr when he nd me..
deep in my heart i reli don wish that will happen.
n believe it wont happen to him.i shouldnt think so muc..
b positive n bless with sincere heart..

16th july 2010

i tot today i will hv a usual day as normal..
a day i go to work with a tired body..
then work til frusarated.
then went home with tired tired body..
however today i wake up with a hapi mood..
i think of him suddenly..
so i started to dress up abit today..haha
however at work was lik usual..
anyway, at the end of the day, i received a msg..
this make my day back..^^
he ask me out for a movie..
however i make him waited me 30min.
when i reached thr, i could feel that he is angry..
but after that he's back to normal le..
feel so sweet..
i wear a dress n din bring any jacket ..
he offer me his white jacket..^^
so sweet le..
we will go n catch the mvie again.."the craziest"
^^ even its onli 2hours plus, but this reli gv me a great evening..