25th april

today i work spilt stiff..
from 7am to 12 noon..then cont from 530pm to 8pm..
in the middle i sleep whole resting time..
this morning i was with pei see n boram in hotsess..
darlina put a note she n boram oso cant find the other 2candle's glasses..
so in the middle which not bz i call pastry to find out any with them..
as per alvin he told me is at the basemnt but uncle said is at the 2nd floor..
so i went there n get 5 candles glasses..
where by i don und why they cant find it out..
then later on boram n iz was talking about children that boram hate so muc but not baby..
so i add a sentence, so u will teach or said "cibai" to the children everyday la..
i could feel she no more hapi working wt me..
but i don care..
she reply me tat i am the one who will do so..
but the fate who will is obvoiusly stated..
she reply me by saying alot, ask me said loudly so Mr grafe noe n every1 noe tat i said "cibai"..
lol..she got a big emotion about tat..
anyway i donwan so comparetative with her as she is not worth it..
i go back to hostess at 530 helping dar ..
she got something to be done so after the buffet started then she went for her break..
i was having my break wt elbert as he worked 4 to 1 at bar..
this morning i ask iz whether can put me 8am tomolo til 4pm..
since sun usually is not bz early in the morning..
she said cant as tomolo will be bz..
anyway i don feel lik fair as boram will be in 8am but she finished today at 7am..
so i don think they are doing something for me..
im going to bring out the 8-3pm the nxt week scedule as well..
see wat will happened if they do not change it..
cz rite now its not confirm yet..
i hate thinking about work..
cz the more i think the hateness inside its getting deeper..

24th april

3days din write blog as i too tired n no time..
on 22th after work , me elbert n geo went to geylang n hv lunch..
we went to a dim sum restaurant..
had so many things..but not the crabs tong fun..
elbert told going thr to eat tat but onli available after 530pm..
but then he nd to rush back for work..
after tat the dimsum..still got alot of time so we go to to douby ghaut..
went thr to hv dessert at ice monster..
i got a mix fruit ice blended, elbert had the mango flavour n geo the mango n durian flavour..
was so so so full..then elbert went to buy his magazine while me n geo went home..
i near fall asleep on the way home in mrt..
so tired tat day == donnoe y..
reach home, after remove make up straightly fall asleep..
sleep til the nxt day..lol..i think more then 10hours ba...
then the nxt day i work floor..
no1 clear the clear station..
once i cleared the station, i broken some side plates n sauces..
iz din said anything =X
then lunch vlei strong runner..
me , pei qi n roshan runner..
but stil cant back at 3 sharp sharp..
as the auntis din cooperated..
so slow slow they wash things..=X
after work i went home n on9..
onli realise tat the nutrilite tat dar ask me to get her wasnt available in sg..
so do alot of research to see which suitable for her..
i oso call ivan to ask so..
then i play games till around 12 midnite..== so late..
this morning so tired..
working with boram onli at hostess..
tini mc, so i got to be in hostess..
i suppose at floor..sienz le...
she everything oso donnoe ..oso nvm..cant blame her..
evrything oso ken cheong..kaisu, kaisi..
scare this scare tat..
everything ask me..everything oso need i do..==
so headache..fool around she noe..
the biggiest job i think she done is gving out the doorgifts n lucky draw vouchers..
run away check settle by me, dinner resv call by me, buffet close by me, everything me..==
when i wan go back tat time, she still at the cashier..
then call me ask where's the chocolate candles light glasses..
yea, is my wrong.. but can she find it out..
ask me where to find, said later i make her get scold..
watever oso me..
at last still said her usual word " cibai"
so damn angry her tat time..then i reply her again..
argh!!!!
after tat i went out wt elbert n geo for dinner at marina square in the hk restaurant..
talk about many things..then now at home writing my blog..
kok leong jz now call about my hp..
he make hand to me tomolo or on mon..
hv a while chat wt him..
then i told him i wan to sleep le..
so tired recently..
yea mum called me about segi after my work..
she said she cant find the one..reli no mood to talk wt her this..so ask her to settle her home prob then onli think of this..
today is mum' chinese bday..

21st april

today i wake up around9am..
reli got a good good sleep..
then i wake up to prepare to go jb le..
as i nd to tansfer money for my mum..
reach thr almost around 1130am..
after transfer n cash deposit to mum's account..
i went to telekom as well..
as mum said the tmnet line is under my name..
they cant change the line to bercham..
nd i go to change it..
din noe the way go so i took a taxi to go..
reach thr then onli realise is quite near de..
i can walk thr no nd spent RM5 for it..
anyway nvr la...
is actually located near putri pacific..
went in to take my turn..onli 2 person infornt me..
but it takes sometime onli my turn..
after fill in the form n details..
i left telekom n walk back to city square...
reach thr i go to the thai massage..
the 1st time get massage,but it reli quite good after the massage..
can heard the waist sound when she turn my body n waist to a side..
scared me..=="
then my advantage started..
been long time din reli go shop shop..
but i bought alot expensive clothes..
2 pants tat cost RM65(20%) each, a colt cost RM75(1/2%)which after discount..
n some other clothes which oso branded..
as usual i will buy my comic as well n this time plus 2books of sudoku..
when i finished tmnet thr i went to eat at kim gary restaurant alone..
i saw the 2GP's staff thr dining..
then when i wan to go home tat time i go kopitiam eat eat as well..
after tat i go to the beside shop n bought 1/2 dozen "bao"..
is a new openning shop..wish to try long time ago..
donnoe why jz feel lik buying..
anyway i spent alot today, i change $150 to RM as my account not allow to without any money more..
reach home is almost around 8plus at nite..
po po boiled some leong sui..
abit bitter..but cant waste it la..
no1 at home,the bun still thr.i onli taken i of it..==
abit headache i think i should sleep early today..
suddenly when reach home feel lik wan to cut my frony hair..
long time din do lik tat oledi ..

20th april

this morning, im with hostess again..
it was a bz day, pei qi was on floor today..
me ,tini and pei see on hostess..
i was ask to help stn 1 n 2 to turn the table as there's no table for gst by peter..
realise tat ppl who work in tat stn couldnt move fast..
jz set a tbl take 2 to 3 time back to the table..
no1 care about the clear stn, so do the equitment to operate..
hemm..just noe how to blame other person..
pei see and tini go for 1st break..
i go the second break to cover them..
damn bz answering phn..n prepare everything..
after break come up,im in same stn wt star, christine, and hesley..
keep on jking donwan same stn wt star nor christine...
at the end, kak rahman came to help up..
so i offer myself to runner wt olivia and geo..
i help olivia wt the ala carte order as william tat time abit fierce..
lunch is lil bit bz then usual..
we finished things quite on time..
olivia was sent home at 230pm..
after work we wait for elbert to get dinner..
wait him at koufu then he wan to change to marina square..
tot he said food court..
change again to other place..
end up we take KFC..
elbert treat this time..
later on, i go and meet reave ,che wui and keong gor.
ask geo to accompany me as well..
around 9 pm,,,keong gor went to take his motor..the rest take mrt together..
on the way to met station..
geo n wui joke around about me..
from cityhall til amk mrt i did not speak a word with geo..
reach home no longer he sms me..
said soli as he noe he's too over the line..
anyway i din angry or wat..jz wana to make him scare onli..
so tats mean i success le...
when i on9 i saw tek seng on9 as well..
is been veli veli long time din see him on9 le..
n get this chance to chat wt him..
however he seem cold this time during the conversation..
he din say muc or respond muc..
as i guess he went to genting wt kar chuan to see hins's concert..
no longer he said he feel uncomfortable so wan to off9..
hemmmm..so hard see he on9 so fast he off le...
mum call me to go jb tomolo to tranfer $$ to her account ..
so tired till i cant finish the blog and hv to cont on 21st april...
cz i fall asleep in the middle i type the blog..

19th april

morning have a late crowd..busy turn over to brunch..
brunch was at floor, got a few of VIP came..
same station wt geo n mimi..
everything was fine during the brunch..
sean's last day in oscars..
we stay till almost 4pm thne onli left..
plan to hv dinner wt sean n elbert due to sean's last day..
wait at koufu, iz came up had her breakfast+lunch+dinner..
join later by sean..
after iz gone down..roland came le..
chat awhile then sean gone down to take over elbert..
elbert come onli we had the dinner..
then i make a decision to send my hp o repair at juntion8(bugis)
reach thr find the sony errisson's service centre..
i don feel good once im thr..
the service wasnt thr..
then by my turn..
i told them wat happened..
if wan to change the design..
i nd to pay $269 to change it..
after talk wt themm...
i called kok leong about it..
he said take back the hp n leave ba..
then i tell them i wan to cxl the service..
so so angry when she said nd $269 jz to change the cover..
too muc le..
then i went home..
on the way i phone geo tell him everything...
after take bath at home...
kok leong sms me tat he's coming but i oledi at home..
==
then i faster take a jacket n run out to meet him..
cant imagine he reli come cz tot meet him tomolo..
after telling himeverything..
he said is jz small matter..but small things seem alwis big trouble for me..
then talk awhile n check my things..
then he leave as i oso nd to work tomolo..

18th april

today is siew lon's bday..
jz sent a msg in fs wishing him..
yesterday was my off..
the one whole day i stay at home..
i did laundry (clothes, pillow, shoes, bag)
then i get my hush puppies lugagge bag oso..
then i on9 n chat n check my mail..
clean the room..bla la blabla..then one whole finish..
at nite i was chatting wt aunt kelly...
then today i was at hostess wt pei qi n pei see..
so boring..today not reli bz..i got to stay til 4pm as there's no1 between 3 to 4pm..
then amanda ask to go for steamboat at bugis..
so at 5pm, me amanda, olivia, geo n sebastine walkto bugis..
man,, they order spicy soup..
reli cant take it..veli spicy...
hv a veli veli full dinner...
then after work, every1 take their own way home..
i take bus home..
on the way i fall asleep..
luckily this pass the stop..
reach home..roommate was sleeping..
so early today she at home sleep..
anyway i feel so uncomfortable..
the stomach kind lik turning n turning..
abit lik throwing out..
hou san fu le..
so sleeping n tired..
got to sleep early today..

16th april

today i work morning..
after work, i will meet bangbang, pat, chee kin, yang they all..
chee cheng will join 1st but then i believe cz his bf then she din come..
so the whoel was me n bang bang..
pat oso invite another fren which i donnoe de..
after work, i stay at locker n play my sudoku..
after awhile felt sleepy so take a rest..
no longer bang bang call say she finished her training coming to meet me 1st.
so got a fast bath then meet her at raffles city's star buck..
we go n walk n walk around thr..
around 7pm then we met pat n cheekin, yang another fren of pat..
the guys left out abit of me n bang
luckily bang bang got come accompany me..
then they decided to go marina square food court take dinner..
i order ayam penyet n bang order japanese food..
we oso order two more side dish, fried carrot cake n fried oyster..
when we wait for the fried carrot cake, me n bang talk in cant..
the guy tot we are hk ppl..
lol..then we act act we are..lol
i believe he try to kacau kacau us la..
ask alot of things..
then me n bang start our dinner festival..
wow..so full le..cant reli finish all..
as they din take muc of the fried carrot cake n oyster..
after the dinner, almost 10pm then we go home..
but after dining,me n bang refresh alot of our history..
during primary n secondary school..remind me n bang noe each long time n we alwis in same class onli form 1 n 2 not in same class..
the rest we alwis stick together..
got alot of memories..mostly is wonderful de..
so so tired n sleepy..after reach home..
all of us go home, yang go work midnite..

nakamura

the man tat i love b4..
the man i hate so muc..
the last relation i had wt..
the man tat make me feel being fool..
the man left me..
the man tat doesnt trust how i reli am..
the man i din drop a single tear after break..
i met him yesterday as he ask me out..
reli not sure whether to meet him back..
after break up, this will be the 1st time we met up..
but at last i make the decision to met him at orchard's mrt..
b4 the day of meeting him..
i did alot of things..
wat he complainted about me when we together..
i try to gv the best impression to him..
no idea why i do so..
when the time come near n near..
i feel nervous n without direction..
wonder wat should i do n said when i meet him..
we were quiet at 1st..but then were better..
after a dinner at wisma republic..
we went for a walk around orchard..
then at last i suggest to hv a drink..
during the drink we start to talk alot..more personal..
he doesnt change lik last time..so caring n gentle..
told bout wat he is doing n where working..
asking wat had happened to me..
talking about the songs..
the change we have, how we are last time..
alot....
at last we go home then he insist to send me home..
til i reach my flat lift onli he go back..
cz all the way i ask him to go home without sending me home..
i believe he worry i cant reach home cz drunk..
but i still ok de..


anyway he told me he doesnt start any relation after me..
he said he wan to settle down..
he wan to get a stable life now..
how i hv changed..

n i could he reli got a change then the past..
ermm..

12th april

today is easter day..
not to say in oscars was bz,..
anyhow i feel i do hate him..
but sumtime i will sercetly look at him..
i noe he reli reli don lik to see me anywhere..
wherever i am he wil go another place..
so sad of tat..
another case was me n another guy..
he admire tat he lik me..
but this shouldnt happen
as i promise myself from the begginning..
i wil nvr be ppl's third party..
tats one of the point..
another was i don think i lik him..
i donwan wat happened to JJ will happened to him as well..
reli sad wat i did to JJ..
but recent he keep on ask me whether i hate to be fren wt him or even look at him..
i don reli mean tat..
but jz tat i donnoe how to comfront him..
summore one of my team member lik to relate us together..
speard rumors..so irritating..
beside tat today kok leong seache me n chat..
he ask me out for dinner on tue..
i wonder so long but i still donnoe whether to meet him anot..
so sien..
i lost the gal n guy chain..
the one i bought to gv eddie one of it but din do so..
i lost on the day i ask yang to take my hp thru calling him..

recently i could feel thr's these 3person veli concern of me..
which is elbert, geo and sunny..
mostly sunny noe muc wat happened to me
hemm..elbert keep on ask me wat happened to me..
but i cant n donnoe how to let him noe it..
anyway i still got many things tat i nd to consider n i donnoe how tosettle..
i don wish to tell everything to ppl anymore especially my secrets..
i believe not everything could jz open mouth n say out now..
hemm..pretty tired as after work i went n hv a jog today..
on thur i may go out wt patrick, chee kin n yang and mayb john wong as well..
they planning,i still wonder whether join or not..

8th apr

im not feeling well today..
so din go to work during morning..
after visit doc i went a walk at amk hub..
but wat i wan to say is from yesterday i hv felt not rite..
flu, headache n abit fever..
i hv a chat wt kok leong..
i unblock him at msn..donnoe why..
i find khye chuan n tell him wat had happened..
i forgot about wat i told last time..
n now he back to it again..some kind of it..
he is one of my nice good fren..i don which it happened again..
hemm..
beside tat, on sun i bought sumthing..
i told sunny..
he kind of angry,abit..
he urge me not to take it again..
or else he will knead me..
anyway i reli donnoe why i take it..

after i back from leave worked mid the 1st few days,
after tat i din saw him on9 to chat wt him til now..
donnoe wat had happened to him..
everytime on9, i will check whether he is here anot..
but everytime he's not in..

tomolo im going to meet cheng n bang..
i date cheng to queentown..
but after discuss wit bang..
we decide to stay at town..
try to let cheng noe..
but cant get thru her whole day..
donnoe wat happened to her..
as me n bang planned to celebrate cheng's belated bday..
cheng doesnt noe bang will be thr as well..
but me n bang will meet 1st..
..lol..
cheng jz call me said she forget to bring her hp out..
she will decide n let me noe when to meet tomolo b4 i finish work..
^^
sister gathering tomolo ..
long time din gather all together..
so hard as we nd to work n working hours..
^^

7th april

today i work morning..
veli tired..as yesterday i slept veli late due to go out wt frenz..
this morning summore i at hostess..
reli reli stress n dizzy during morning..
mayb cause long time not at hostess..
peter ask me those tat i donnoe..
hemmm...when i reach this morning at canteen..
i sat wt the chef as thr's no1..
din noe he oso work as well..
when he reach, tats a seat beside me..
he choose to sit at other tbl...
reli angry bout his attitude..

breakfast n lunch was so bz but after 2pm all was slow down..
voen said wan to go eat waffle but i don feel of going..
at last i din join n went to buy my blush n go home..
while waiting bus i saw the cold kitchen aunty..
we take the same bus..
reach home i still ok de..
but donnoe why now i sick le..
mayb i took cold bath n recently weather not good..
i oso din take care health..
the earliest even call to say im mc..
i called at 1030pm lik tat..

4th april

yesterday was hin leong's bday..
i do chat wt him awhile today..
i was same shift wt leong yesterday..
still the same he don look at me..
he don smile at me..
when i enter to canteen, he was sitiing wt his frenz..
i believe he saw me n he left..
but i make a move n sms him..
whether he hate to see me??
wat i received is he said im the one hate to see him..
is not hate is scare,
he look so fierce, the 1st nite when working mid wt him..
he reli scare me..
summore i don wish he hv second tot of us..
jz wish to cont be fren wt him onli..
but he seem don und tat..
he call me dear..
he's so sturborn keep mention the name..
do i make a wrong move?
as i should keep things the same way..

reeve as well..
i feel so soli to reeve..
i feel i treat him so bad..
misuse him..
but he seem nvr angry bout tat..
sumtime he oso advised me..
recently scare to get close to him..
as elbert n geo will make fun of us in front of me..
i don wan gv any hope or misunderstand to any1..
as i oso donnoe wat i wan n feel so..
donwan to be unfair..
i sms reeve as well yesterday, telling him im soli to him..
he ask whether im mad, asking am i irritating to him..
he still could joke wt me..
i reli donnoe wat i could do then saying soli to every1..

gan

after working mid wt him a few nite..
i could said he reli don lik seeing me..
che wui ask me to hv supper wt them..
when i go in, a quick one he finish n went out..
n wasnt bz outside..
doesnt wana to talk to me..
whenever they are talking, n they include me in..
he will jz silent..

after tat few nite, i found tat many of the song he heard i do heard b4 while not muc ppl do so..
however tat doesnt mean anything anymore..
i wish i could work mid wt him last time..
so tat i could hv more time to noe him..
but now i feel so..
working in the same shitf wt him reli feel difficult..
dare not to speak a word more, dare not to enter kitchen,dare not to look in,dare not to cross by..reli don enjoy it lik tat..