cant breathe

in this morning i nvr think of i wil see him in the bus..
as he was lik avoiding me recently..
hwever he was in the bus oso this morning wt me..
once i saw him i was lik cant breathe..
i donnoe y n my heart beat so so damn fast..
scare,headache,n many many more..
this feeling onli experince when i told tek seng i lik him at the phn..
now it comes again..=.=
then i was thinking mayb greet him morning or wat when walk down from the bus but..
he was walking so fast in another dirention..
so damn sad man tat time..
feel lik wana cry out but i hold on..
i din take any breakfast then i straightly go to oscar..
i get to noe su mc..
onli me alone tat hvn master things yet..
but i try my best oledi..
i damn slow tat i use 1 n half hours to do the food tags..
i din go for the break..
i stay until 1345 then onli i go for the break..
roland don even notice it..
this morning i reli don hv mood of working le..
i feel lik telling him tat i lik him..
or mayb jz said soli even i don noe whether i did sumthing wrong anot..
hemm but he stil donwan talking wt me..
tats reli hurt man..=.="
after tat..
i got training for the grooming at 330pm
after grooming class i went to 2nd floor..
as sunny ask me thr..
no longer i he oso go back to conrad..
as he work casual labour at pastry..
hemm.
even we meet thr oso din said anything..
is worse then a stranger now..