25th May 2010

jesslyne is crazy , im crazy..
everyday i am crazy..
i donnoe why..its jz not me..
im trying to make myself hapi and others as well..
hemm..reli tired to go work..
my brain my heart doesnt wan to go work..
but my physical force me thr..
today was so bz during dinner
tats a group coming in a short while..lik a bomb come in the sudden..
but after tat every1 come n help..haha..
anyway..its jz a short one..
they come at 730pm then by 9pm they are gone
suddenly when i check my phn..
i saw a msg from him..
argh!!! so miss him..n in the bz time i got his msg..
haha..the way he write the msg make me soft hearter and touch..
mayb die already as well.lol jk la..
he tell me in the msg tat we are meeting soon..
keep on mention this..
he reli noe i wish to see him soon??
hemm...

22nd May 2010

the May, alot have happened..
i got promoted early of MAy as captain form hostess..
from hostess i am been pull to do service..
the last 3days b4 i go hong kong i the 1st timebecome COD.
the 1st day is me myself as COD..
the last night i still nd towork til 1plus b4 i go home and rush for my flight to hong kong..
tek seng been here..
i went hong kong with bert and grace and geo and gary..
we go for 9 days..
in 9days we eat n eat n eat..play walk n walk..
walk alot n eat alot as well..
but fun however onli get to slp around 5 hours per day..
during the vacation, i was imagining if tek seng went with me then how it will be..
wish he was thr during the vacation..
reach sg back was lik a dream that doesnt wish it come truth..
from the 2nd day i back til today..only tonite i din see him..
every nite i saw him b4 i slp..
i was yum cha wt him n talk alot at crab place..
then attend the farewell party..
then ask yum cha at the same place..
then he dicided the go home le..
it may takes a month or more then onli miht meet each again..
when he left, he sent a sms..
sure im going tommis him

tats all,,

i reli veli tired..tired with everything..
especially the ppl i work with..
im not sure whether my desicion is correct but at this moment..
i reli don wan to see the face of all the irritating ppl..
i have been thinking veli long time..
but this time i reli have make a move on it..
i have jz finished type my resignation letter..
leaving mandarin doesnt make me wonder 2nd tot other then Rosley and cheryl.
i onli will feel soli to both of them.
cheryl have done so muc for me..
get me promoted jz with my working experince in mandarin for 5months.
rosley is so confident and appreciate the things i have done..
however only both of them know how hard i have done wasnt strong enuff for me to stay..
compare to their stress, mine of cz will not as heavy as their..
however i reli couldnt take it any more..
or mayb should i say..
i doesnt do my job well..
i couldnt hand my task on time or unsuccessfully do it..
but i rlei regret i learn alot from this place..
i learn to b more independance..
no1 you can reli count on..
no1 you can reli trust on..
ppl will not appreciate the things have done..
anyway, i think i reli need a break..
reli tired with the life i have now..
nth reli different then wat i had when i was with absinthe..

nth much i need now

today im off..
going out with cheng and bang almost whole day..
we went to buy something then back mandarin to pass over the stationary i bought..
oso got a full full brunch having buffet japanese food at sakae sushi..
then kar leong came n join us..
we had a veli full full brunch ba..
then cheng wan to buy a coat for her work de..
then the near by shop don hv..
so i suggest at suntec city
so accompany go find the coat then pat came to join..
after that, we accompany pat eat eat lo..
then since is near by oscars..
i went over but all the ppl i noe were not thr anymore..
i jz saw frankie, my loong tai hub..
miss him alot..chat awhile..
then i went home..donnoe y feel lik sms tek seng..
then we decide to meet at the market near by..
jz both of us..^^
during the talk..we talk alot of things..
about hows his work hunting is..
hows his relation between his sister..
how silly his sister..
how kar chuan is..
he got chicken pop now..
he consider whether i had it b4 la..
alot alot..
meet him at 11pm then around 130am..
we go back le..
seriously i reli envy his relation with his sis..
i will nvr had that kind of relation with him..
but from wat he tell me
how his sis done everything to him..
i reli couldnt compare myself with her..
however, i feel glad..
donnoe y.
he said go home then take shower oo..
i rlei do so..
haha..he still the one influence me alot..
but i think i am hapi wat i hv wt him..
simple fren..nth muc then that..
seriously if u wan me to b frank..
i reli donnoe wat my feel to him..
i reli still love him or??
i reli couldnt ans now..
i jz feel good in this way..
but when he tell me his sis will come later..
i rlei don feel good..
however i noe his sis status in his heart i reli cant replace..
i shall jz hapi wit wat i hv now

he is back

today i off i wait at home whole day..
he sms me when he almost reach.
when out fetch him..
but we stay at thr awhile to take dinner.
at 1st plan to take some pineapple fried rice..
but donnoe wat shop we enter..then jz order some ala carte..
we talk abit the past n present..
then we went home..
he stay veli near my place..
but he will move soon as the work place veli far..
anyway, i went home..
as he said will come n look for us later on..
i watch my drama takemy time..
he came..
sit awhile n chat abit..
then he suggest to go sing k..
then reach k box..
need to wait til 10 to get a room..
so we went down to take a drink break..
his sis came with her bf..
chit chat awhile..
seem lik normal as usual..
still couldnt get sometime wat he mean..
however tat might not be important to me..
wats important is how i feel..
he told me this time isnt his vacation..
he come for interview..
i wish he got success.. i believe he could..
the whoel nite we sang k..
but the feeling abit weird..
i donnoe how to said..
plus abit lik how i hate kok leong..but not tat deep..
abit confusing..
wat will happen in the future le?

scorpio vs aquarius

scorpio has been known all this while as a mystery horoscope.
hard to predict wat their mind running up to..
as well descride as a protective horoscope..
they will protect wat they feel important with they sting..
mean with their strongest strength..
outlook may as like ice but was descride b4 that when come close it turn to fire..
they hate being betray..
they are so loyal that may in their life only have a person the love most n willing to wait for long duration..
aquarius as a creative horoscope..
hard to control like a wide sea..
they have their own mind and idea of world..

recently i watched a horoscope drama..
i do noe this from begining that horoscope only could help us noe muc more better of urself..
they could help us to descride how the future or wats our future will be..
all is in our hand, depend on how we make the choice..
as i read the book in the past..
it does said scorpio n aquarius isnt the best match..
but whether its truth or not, it still on how we handle it..
this brought me back to old days..
refresh back when scorpio met aquarius..
memories of both..however it seem left not muc anymore..
even been some times..
but this is still in the mind not giving up..
eventrought wat the ans is..
the heart still isnt die with it..
haiz..how's the fate going to make it le??

bert going back msia

i got the news that bert wana return to msia quite sometimes..
but i din tell any1 even geo, as i think he must having a bad time now..
he mc , take unpaid leave, did alot of things..
din go work since he come back ffrom cny..
even geo work at the same place wt him but oso cant manage to meet him..
that day, i got a confirm sms from bert tha he wan to go back msia..
he tender his resignation letter..
at 1st i wasn't feeling anything but later on..
when i chat wt geo regard bert..
i start to refresh back about him..
he is the 1st person make me cry..
as i felt i got protected by this fren when i need to..
some1 softhearted
he knew i love siew mai..
knew im not dare to take from buffet line..
he will prepare for me..
even sometime he may sound abit rough or unkind..
but he din mean so..
may due to the go as man and big bro..
i couldnt descride the feeling..but i reli hapi that i met him..
after ivan gone, bert is the one taking care of us..
now he is gone as well..
then who will take care me le??
when think of this all, i nearly cry..
compare the time ivan leaving n now bert leaving..
i believe i have more strong feeling this time..
mayb during ivan time, i could prepare something for him when he leave..
but bert, wat could i do..
feel so sorry to him..
im sure will miss hiim so muc..