4th April 2012

been sometime i did not write blog anymore..
mayb cz too lazy ba..
recently keep on alwis saw Sam Chin shadow around the restaurant..
but in a second i realise n tell myself he oledi left..
heard he go to australie..
honestly if anyone ask me whether i still lik him..
i wouldn't able to give a firm ans..
whenever i saw him previously will keep on refreshing my brain..
it will keep on making me emo and remind me of the hapiness we got..
but when i got to noe he is leaving of cz tats reli hurt n sad news to me..
cz i would not noe when will i see him again.

other then tat, recently pretty alot of things happened other then Sam Chin..
elbert and vicki cheah is a pair of couple now..
thier match doesnt gv a postive reflect to me...
instead of blessing them, i feel weird and thrs a feeling i cant explain..
this make me uncomfortable for weeks..
even till not i don feel convince wt it..
some of the ppl around doesnt und why i react lik tat..
me myself oso cant und why..
but i noe if this condition cont, it will destroy the relation i build wt bert..
i don wish too..but i reli donnoe wat can i do..
jz cant accept both of them in front of me..
haiz..

on the 1st april, total 9 of us went to universal studio..
it should b a hapi and exciting day..
but i don feel so..
i hv been waiting for the day to go together but the end i don enjoy muc of it..
feel more lik alone going to theme park..
lik a stranger in the group..
don think will go out again..