28th august

i din noe tat alot of ppl reading my blog..
anyway i wana to said tat im went for a ooutside catering today..
it wasnt a big group, 8pax onli..
at wong partnership..
me n joseph lead by philippe..
i reach company b4 10am..
but we onli move when 1030am..
early thr jz to check the items n reconfirm something..
witout any breakfast start the day le..
was so hungry when reach 230pm..==
wasnt angry in the morning then nervous as tats the 1st time going for outside catering..
when reach back to restaurant the anger back le..
i was so so tired..
i started feel hungry but nth to fill in..
i wake up so ealry i onli could back to rest around 4pm..
due to the heavy headache i got, i could sleep well..
i took more then 15tablets of calcium in one short to kill the pain n help my sleep..
but it seen doenst reli help lik usual..
at last i manage make myself fall asleep in the other ways..
took a short nap 30 min then wake up cont prepare for the dinner..
still hvn fill in, but alot of things to be done..
i reli anger wt shah n joseph..
reli damn hate themm especially shah nowadays..
i try to get some info but couldnt yesterday..
will be calling for info tomolo..
hope could gets some useful info..
i reli not in the condition..
i reli got a bad headache..
around 1030pm i called philipppe to request home..
i couldnt take it anymore..
im reli reli tired, n the headache make me lik dying..

27th august

today again i veli veli damn angry..
tilll i feel lik throw everything out everywhere..
this morning i came onli me n sha were in the restaurant..
as usual joseph was nvr on time..
zack was late..
anyway, lunch wasnt bz, tat si joseph may irritated him tat i was oso veli feel in the kitchen..
he caught me to do this n tat..
n he wasnt doing any..==
veli irritating sia !!!!!
somemore nowadays he lik to push me or slap my shoulder or watever la..
man, i don lik it lo..
but he still keep on doing it..
kelly did ask me to scold him if he did it again..
talking to this kind of human is jz wasting my time..
is not ta i wan to be calculative, but shah isnt being fair enuff..
as this dinner, joseph was going home earlier..
left every1 at the back..
if he is going back early, tats no reason i cant go back as well..
he is runner wt carmelita, is going back..
after i settled everything on floor, i nd to go in to help carmelita as well..
wat the hell its this..
plus i nd to prepare the catering item for tomolo..
he din even let me to prepare when the gst wasnt alot..
n most of the things was settle..
im reli angry, n don feel tats fair enuff for me..
he is the captain getting more paid then me..
n wat the hell i nd to do n work more then him..
is tat being fair enuf..
later on, i found tat im going for the catering tomolo wt joseph as well..
it add on my anger somemore..
i nd to be in the restaurant by 1030am..
is jz 30 min earlier then usual..
but wasnt the main item, the thing is..
i susposed to work at 6pm on fri, i nd to come early in the morning,i don mind le..
somemore joseph was the one who should come at 3pm oso come on morning...
but he get to go home b4 10pm n i nd to stay n prepare everything n settle the back area for him as well..
plus im onli the waitress he is the captain..
is tat fair enuff for me..
unleast tomolo after catering back i was the onli one could go back, no dinner work for me..
but i don think i still will hapi about it..
im getting more stress n stress nowadays..
mayb i should plan go wt my frenz to genting to release my stress..
n wt veli frank word to tell philippe about it..
somemore im thinking of resigning..
i don think i could stand until the end of the year..
but 1st of all.. nd to do some research of some infomation..
i was so angry, when finish tat time, i was the onli one who going back by transport..
zack as usual take a ride wt sha..
kelvin bakc wt chef..
im sure suraj will take a ride as well..
so im the one onli going back by transport plus nd to wake up earlier..
everything me..walau..

25th august - eyes prob

today i din work le..
mc again..it serious this time..
my eyes are so sensitive..tat i cant wear lenses for 2 weeks..
actually was planing to go work..
but on the way out, the eys were reli pain..
so i sms philippe telling him i mc..
since yesterday nite i was feel good wt my eyes..
tot will be better after a nite..
so i went n visit the doc..
he gv me an eyes drop onli..
said i cant wear lenses for atleast 3 days..
the best 2weeks don wear..==
plus no make up anything contact to the eyes..
cant imagine i nvr wear make up to work..==
shah oledi complaint i don hv enuff make up le..
now more worst lei..
then i go walk walk awhile then go home..
i sleep for a couple of hours the wake up n play games lo..
nth to do ma..
after tat i do laundry..donnoe why so good mood le..
half way, i wnet out buy fruits..
thinking of eating fruit salad..
onli fruit i spend $15 le..
then walk to sheng siong walk walk awhile lo..
at there i bought alot of snacks..
after so long i feel lik calling mum..
chat wt her awhile then end the call..
reach home cont my laundry lo..
cut my fruit fruit..
then do mask scrub everything..
one day pass le..
i hope my eyes get better fast fast oo..

she bring back ppl again !!!

today i wasnt in good condition..
my lenses seem bring alot of prob to me recently..
whenever i wear it, after a ouple of hours, i wont feel comfortable wt it anymore..
i think i couldnt wear anymore lenses le..
today more worst which my tears keep on blinking..
even now im home without it..
i feel so pain when i blink my eyes..
hemm..
after everything settle in the restaurant
i asked philippe to go back earlier..
as onli the back area left over n joe with carmelita were thr..
so around 11 plus i went home le..
reach home, i saw some1 in the room..
she bring another gal home again..
this gal was the one she brought back last fri..
they went out then drunk drunk de went home..
recently whenever she bring home gal, will not inform me le..
== think i sei de ar??
or im invisible??
she reli make speechless now..
so angry lei..plus now my eyes lik tat..
reli bad luck man..
btw, today got 4 frenz bday
-yvonne foo
-cho chee seng
-alfie
-alex yee
wish they have a great day

23rd aug

today sun , i had a lunch wt bang bang n pat at queenstown IKEA
susprisingly, the food was far better then wat i expected..
we went for a walk near by then decided to sing k..
tot going to clementi but end up at boon lay..
on the way going, we were talking about cheng n her bf..
a place near by to jurong east..
we went in n sing k lo..
1st time sing wt pat n bang..^^
the day wasnt bad..
after the entertainment, we had our dinner near by..
the japanese foodcourt..
yesterday, we out wt micheal, kelvin,shah nzack to a place at orchard..
a place called acid pub..
shah's frens preforming thr..
after tat, i went home as i donwan to join them..
they went to a place called gossip..
on thur i was mc..
i mean it, as i unhapi wt some of the staffs..
i wnet to jb wt bert n geo..
has been long time nvr been out wt them so hapily n to jb..
^^

18th aug 2009

today donnoe y i veli bad mood..
working split shift, handling a tbl of 6 in wine cellar..
but donnoe wat am i doing..
around 230 all gst gone..
shah ask us to rest..
i went to buy my grocery at amway..
reach company around, 430 ba..
i took some snack then get a nap..
aound 6pm i woke up n blur blur do my things..
shah told me to cut the menu at upstair..
again is me, i realise kelvin was sleeping when i reach..
found out the dirty napkin wasnt count, butter wasnt arranged,napkin wasnt fold
one words, lik joe, things wasnt done n sleep..
i reli bad mood..
wat should i said?
i suggest, i tell, i try...
no1 follow, everything expect me to do..
im tired being by myself fighting, moving..
then, joe n zack back ealier then follow by me..
at the way chat wt geo,
he oso not in good mood today..
many prob in bar..
reli feel lik going back msia..
but wat could i do after back??
when almost reach home, the uncle sat behind me..
his hand was on the handler which touched my shoulder..
when i down from the bis, he follow me as well..
waiting at the traffic , he talk with me..
ask whether im from sg or china..
wat a quest he asked..a shy of him..
i don wana b rude, so i said im not local..
tats all..
then he keep on asking am i staying here,
i jz tell him, im not in good mood, i don feel lik talking..
he keep asking whether can be fren..
walao, uncle pliss la..
mirror urself b4 talk to me..
wat age are u man, somemore tat quality wan to talk wt me..
sei far far la..
i din ans him anymore..
i jz cross my road..
so irritating person he is..

16th aug 2009

this few days i stil don feel great after knowing eddie in relation but..
i tell myself to be ok..
i went back to oscars n look for peter about my testi..
donnoe where come the braveness to meet peter..
but when it come..
actually it doenst so bad as i imagine..
after tat, i heard tat elbert hurt his hand..
it wasnt tat serious but he took this an excuse to mc..
==
today sun, i din plan anything to do..
tot if nth then will stay at home whole day..
but cheng sms me early in the morning..
went out meet her around 4pm at novena n find jane jane..
hv a chat in a donut shop...
then went window shop wt cheng..
ah wui call later on , ask dinner together at bugis..
so go wt cheng to bugis..
cheng went home, n i meet the rest of them..
ah wui told me tat reeve's mum hv cook for us..
ask us to go his home eat wor..==
im don feel comfortable going thr..
end up me, wui n yang eat sakae sushi..
during the dinner,, again i heard something about eddie le..
he will resign around dec..
hemm..i wish i don care his info anymore..
but its seem i nd more n more time for it..
b4 go home..
i tapao some food for geo as i pass by oscars..
i wonder why i will be lik tat..
but i hope its jz tat i think too muc..
recently cz of love love issues..
make me could sleep well..
as one of the ang mo in bareatoo, marcus
one of the guy in absinthe, joeseph..
both seem lik fall in..==
veli fan of this, hope wont happen anymore..
i call ivan jz now..
feel lik sharing this with him..
tell him alot of things..
eddie de, reeve de, geo de, marcus n joeseph de..
peter de, shirley from amway de, many ppl de..
as alwis, after talk wt him, feel better le..

a real confirm notice..

it was a bz nite, absinthe is full house n a private room wt 25 pax..
after a bz nite, i got an appointment wt sunny..
but at last din meet as he nd to wake up early the nxt morning..
so i went n join ah yang, che wui, n calvin chai..
they were at geylang lorong 9 eatting supper..
after 1230midnite finish then go there by taxi..
reach thr, they were sitting inside the lorong..
we start talk and talk..
alot, but was the most important is i heard something..
i got a confirm notice..
eddie n olivia reli together..
b4 tat i heard tat liao..
but jz guessing guessing..cz i jz noe tat eddie is in relation..
tats alll..
when i heard tat, i was a lil bit of alot feeling..
a lil bit of sad, pain, blur, broken..
which mean i do love him..
but im alwis not his type of..
all the way home when ah yang sent me..
i was silent, the 1st time i din talk the way home..
cz i keep on thinking of this..
i feel pain..this feel is familiar..
but not as strong as the 1st time i got it..
which i could contol from inside..
tell myself actting tough n strong..
tats wat i am all this while..
i alwis not the type of gal for the guys i love..
one of the topic during the supper is being in relation..
isnt it great being single..
isnt it great not being hurt..
isnt it great not to hv those pain again..
its not easy to handle n control it..
i don wish to cry every9..
i don wish to make myself look pity..
i don wish to hv tat feel anymore..
i ever think will i in relation anymore..
will i dare to do so..
will i gv a chance to myself n another person..
when i couldnt get reply of it..
i hate myself not to hate them then forgiven felt soli of wat i did..
in fact im the wrong one..
i wonder this time how long will it takes to recover..
will i ever feel better..
i which it will nvr hurt me again or come back this feel..
who should i say to?? who can help me??
reli pain, or should i leave this place again..
repeat again wat i did b4..
leaving conrad isnt far enuff ba..

lazy

recently i did alot of things but veli LAZY to write down..
sleep late cz on9 but nvr on here to blog..
im getting more n more lazy sia..==
ok..start wt eddie ba..
alwis talk about him at last..
now start wt him then end wt other..
tats one day i on in facebook, i saw under highlighted..
the title is conrad soccer's team..
inside i saw peter as usual, eddie n rajiz..
it took my more then 1 hours to view n view any pic n video tat related..
i told myself i shouldnt any of his pic..
but my finger doesnt control it..
of cz after view it, i don feel great la...
then about reeve..
i donnoe wat happened..
but i start feel uncomfortable whenever im with him
i don lik tat feel..
he start to ask alot n he wan to noe everything in details..==
when we went out, he will try to pay for everything..
the dinner, the movie, try to send me home even he got to catch a cab..
is reli irritating..
i don lik being control de, hv to report every single lil thing..
don lik been treat lik a princess==
i said a lie to him..he was trying to call n wake me up one day..
but i purposely swith it to silent..
tats 4 miss call..at last i sent a sms said i forgotten to bring my phn out..
i couldnt meet him as i got something veli important to do..
i gv this excuses to avoid meeting him..
when im doing my grocery, he call again..
again asking me alot of ques ==
i hope i could avoid him this moment..
then go to geo..
its was sun, where we went n visited su..
she gv birth le..
i bought a blanket n a set of boy boy clothes..
share wt bert n geo ,,of cz im the one duty to buy it as usual..
b4 tat, i met angeline n lady name shirley, she is edwin chai's wife..
they all oso from amway lo..
after met wt them, suspose meet wt bert n geo at oscars as i wan to find peter..
at last im dare to find him..
but no use, they finished early so i meet them at hougang n hv dinner b4 ahead to su'home..
had a good weekend..
even doesnt did muc things but i meet my fren n reli got a talk wt themm..
during dinner, bert ask me a ques tat i don reli noe how to ans him..
anyway, i successfully skip the ques..haha
he ask me how's my work, any1 bully me anymore..
haha, the excuse he gv was care of me wor..lol
at the end is about myself lo...
i got abit sick recently..abit flu, headache, sorethoart..
all the min min sickness..
khye chuan so worry keep on urgent me to see doc..
but at last i din see oo..
now i think i nd drink more n more water..
as i got ulsers le ==..
but flu ok le, headache better le..
so i hope all the sickness away away from me far far oo!!!!
haha..