health

i realise my health is getting worst..
i get tired easily..
tot of going for body check up..
but com firm wit human resource tat company wont bear it on...
the worst is my heart,
the pain is awhile n lil by lil..
sumtime feel abit dizzy..
im getting terrible...
beside tat i found tat i don reli noe how to communicate wt ppl..
i could feel tat not muc ppl as close to as last time...
i found im becoming more n more dramatic..
so false..
i could sum1 is angry n wana avoid meeting me..
im so soli about tat..
some new gossip bout me in my department wt those new part timer..
reli make me paiseh wit all the stories..




i think back TTS n many ppl back..
for wat i did n wat had happened..
wow!! thinking of tat reli make ppl's brain headache..



i received a msg from TTS
i saw him when i on9 jz now..
i read the msg n conversation we had last time..




i believe the rain is coming..
the sky look dark..
tats an email i read the title is "smell lik rain"
the story is about a gal get born earlier the normal baby..
she had a tough time to survive..
but she get to stay as a normal healty gal..
one day she spoke to her mum..
tat she could smell HIM..
which her mum tot she was talking bout the rain coming soon..
n actually GOD was wt her all the way when she having a tough time..
after i read this email..
i feel so touch , almost got tears le..