dissapointed

today is the last nite i will stay in ipoh...
tomolo morning i will go back sg n start my work again..
hemmm...reli ng sek tuck..
i tot today i could rlei enjoy my day..
but it doesnt do so..
i was been wake up early in the morning to go market wt granny n mum..
then back home watch the drama as muc i can..
around 12noon went out to sent the youngest sis school..
then i went to bank tot wana change my bank booklet..
but din bring my ic out...
hemm..
when to the town, my bag was spoilt....
reach home i keep on watch drama...
then mum cook dinner n lunch today..
sis still so rebel...
sometime i feel to slap her..
i nvr reli beat her b4..mayb tats my wrong..
i donnoe wat to do to make her und wat we think of..
she is smart, she deserve better future..
but she's spoiltly everything...
she nvr learn from the mistake she done..
when she will realise it...
feel hopeless to her...
i reli hate myself...
y i cant do anything to improve the situation...
i donnoe wat should i do...
hemmm...i reli wish i will see he on9 today..
but he din..
i sms him..he said he tired after done an assignment..
so he din on9 today..i wish to chat wt him again..lik last nite..
tum tum, joke joke abit..bring away from where im unhapi wt..
i reli miss him..
i wish to be selfish, i wan to listen to his voice..
but he nd to wake up at 7am tomolo..he should get a rest..
i wish to hear again he sing a song to me..
this few nite when i listen to radio..
i heard the same song..from rainnie yang.."ai mei"
this mean alot to both of us...
suddenly reli reli miss him..
wish to see him..but so far away..
wish to hear his voice but he's tired..
i ask him whether im selfish or considerate..
he nvr see im been selfish, so tolarate to other ppl...
cz tat i cant be selfish to ask him stay abit longer chat wt me, sing a song for me, on9 for me, cant call him to listen his voice...