hate hate her

soli if everytime or whenever u view my blog..
the blog i wrote sound sad or anger..
cz when i feel not good,sad,angry or anythings bad..
i wil write it out..
i seldom can find a person to talk wt..
so my way is to write it out..
back to the topic..
i hate hate her..
who is she..
she is my supplier so do she is my mum's fren..
when im back from genting (resigned jor)
she is the one who hired me..
oso my mum ask her to hire me de..
then i work there..
as wine promoter at a supermarket..
wat happen is..today is my last day of working there..
n suspose is a deal..
cz actually i was agree to work a day which tat day is a big event 4 tat supermarket..
tat day onli..
but wat happened is she ask me work a day earlier..
to help to prepare 4 the event..
ok tats fine..
then on tat day..the event..
she ask me to cont work seem tat i did nth at home ~ jobless..
then ask me work until end of this month..
ok tats fine..i agree..
then now she wan me to work again..
the fault is, she din tell my salesman tat im only working til end of this month tats mean today 31st of july..
i remind him (the salesman) tat today is my last day, a few days ago..
then only he noe..
argh....
hate hate hate her ar!!!!
reli hate her in deep..deep deep in the heart..
the most over over thing she do is..
she ask me to work til nxt month wor..
sept...she mean sept..oo..tats too long..
hard 4 me to pass the time there..
actually to b frank i don lik tat place anymore..
tats no meaning 4 me to stay there anymore jor..
kinda hate tat place jor..
reli hate invite me oso don wan go there jor..
hate hate hate..reli hate..
i told her i wil work..
but won b long won b until nxt month..
i wil die if reli lik tat..
i time is wasted over there..staying there..4 me i wasting time..
i nvr hate my job..this is the 1st time..
this job reli make me hate it so muc...
i won care wat happen..
whenever my fren confirm me tat she is going genting wt me..
i wil resign..without thinking..won think..
this is the final decision..
she is crazy asking me to work til nxt month..unbelieveable she say tat..
putting me working there is a waste,so evil, so cruel, so monster, so...
argh watever bad there r..
i cont work only bcz of the salesman..
he is a nice man..
4 them..i mean my mum n the supplier..
even they beg me oso i won again there..
nvr nvr wil b there anymore..
i think tat she n my mum..they 2 'pakat'..
they dun let me go..go away from ipoh..
dun wan let me leave ipoh..
honestly saying i reli reli reli reli ..
damn reli don wan stay at ipoh..
even is my hometown..
i don wan at here ar...
if yes..i reli reli hate them..
im big enough to make my own decision..
where i wan to go..what i wan..
so any1 can help me ma??
im looking 4 sum1 to replace me..
pliss..any1 interested..4 more information..
jz ask me..pliss is asap..thanks 4 all help tat im hoping..

two of them..

they..
two of them..
they alwiz make me lik tat..
y..one of them wil b leaving..going to study..this mon wil b leaving..wil b missing him alot..alot..after he hv gone there..the chances we meet n chat wil b least..more least..he is the one i mention alwiz..the HE ..he say tat we r fren..he's good fren..he appreciate wat i hv did 4 him..helping him whenever he need my help..n as i noe..i nvr rejected his request..i try my best to make his life easier..he did worry bout me wen im lost..i mean during the appeal result out..he pho me n comfort me..tats reli help me..he teach me alot..he is the 1st guy teach me alot of things..to b frank, i was scare of guys last time..cz im from a gal's school..i don hv muc guy frenz..so when i go to f6..is sumthing reli scare me..they hv to sit bside me..hv to talk wt them..alot of things..but he is the one save me..save me from tat condition..he change me alot..he's a nice guy..i seldom wear sweater..but i wil wear it when i feel cold..but for him..when i wear it tats mean im sick..n he wil keep asking whether im sick..a caring guy..we r in the same tuition centre..there's once he scare i got no transport..he ask me to follow him..he n his frenz is driving..bring me along..but usually i go there by myself..
the other one...another mr. HE..we noe each not reli long actually..a few months onli..we start a relation..i noe him at my work place..now he is my ex bf..when we break tat time..i reli sad..but the sadness i hv.. i cant explode it out..reli sad..all inside the heart..no1 i can express to..i tot i can let this go..but i cant..i don understand y this is happening..now he alwiz show out himself whenever i on9..ever i noe is nth..but it make me think back..when i saw his name..i wil get depress again..
both of them..they did lighten up my life b4 but later wat happened is a tragedy..

where should i go??

where should i go??
now im waiting the time pass..
wait to enter uni nxt year..
tats wat hv been decided..
however things actually hvn settle yet..
im working at the moment..
im working wit my ex boss again..
as wine promoter again..
but my heart telling me tats not the job i wana work..
i hv promised to work on the event day..
4 the information..
im working at jusco..
jusco at ipoh..
jusco hv jusco's member day..
i was ask back to help on tat day..
so i promised ..
but sumthing happened..
this happened after i promise to work til end of this month..
sumthing make me sad..
i wana leave tat job..
however i hv promised my boss..
n i hv to work til end of this month..
quite a suffer to me..
i don wana broke my promise..
btw this is not the main prob..
the prob is..
the job im working now..
i reli hv no interest to cont anyway after end of this month..
n i won go back to this work..
so im looking 4 a job..
im wonder whether i should go there or there..
is either spore or back to genting..
but which one i should choose..
each of it hv the pints there..
if go spore..
1st of all of cz the salary is better..
double paid then here..
environment better..
ppl cant smoke everywhere..
i hate ppl smoke..
then i reli wana go sum place else then ipoh..
don wan stay at ipoh anymore..
even my family n most of my frenz r in ipoh..
but outside there is sumthing waiting me..
but if reli work at spore..
i need to find a place to stay..
even i hv relative n frenz there..
but they don hv space 4 me..
so i hv to rent a room outside..
a room there cost muc..
summore is reli a new place 4 me..
they use mandarin n english..
im not a chinese educated ..
not reli fluet in mandarin..
in eng 4 me is ok onli..
however if i go genting..
im use to tat place..
i hv been working there b4..
n i do hv frenz there too..
however at there the salary wil not lik spore..
different alot..
double of it..
but at genting they provide room 4 u..
summore at genting..
is near to kl..
i din mean ipoh..
there is a fren wil accompany me if im going to genting..
so should i go spore..
or genting..
the entertainment world..
where should i go??
any1 can tell me..
i cant make my mind..

hope tat end wit disappointment..

on 14th of July is a worst day to me..
early in the morning there's sumthing happened to me oledi..
but i face it calm..
hwever things din end..
it cont..
i was being inform tat the result is out..
the appeal result..
the answer tat hv been waiting so long..
suspose to b the nxt day the result out..
n i check the result through sms once i noe bout it..
pretty scare to open the msg at 1st..
reli scare..
but i hv to open it..
n read it..
it was written lik this..
DUKACITA Anda Tidak Berjaya ditawarkan ke IPTA.
after reading it..
i still feel ok..
i better trust the net result..
so i surf net to check it..
is hard to get in..
many ppl r busying to view tat website..
while waiting 4 the website..
i sms him..
telling him the news..
the result is out..
n at last i get to the website..
damn..
they hvn updated the website yet..
couldnt check..
so angry tat time..
they should done as they noe the result is out..
then later..
later i view it again..
is there..
i jz need to enter my ic no, specific it n my 'angka giliran'..
n the result wil b there..
in front of my screen..
n the answer i get..
is stil the same..
same answer...
helping him check the result..
same thing happened..
i was so down tat time..
he pho me asking hw??
i told him same thing happened on me...
him ask me not to b so sad..
i say they don wan us..
one day they wil regret, regret for not letting us in..
then i cont talking wt my frenz through msn..
topic is bout the result..
im stil fine tat time..
stil can control my feeling..
jz feel unfair..
abit of headache..
later he msg me again..
i told him b4 tat i might go working if cant get in..
the msg was advising me to cont study n not to work 1st..
he believe i could earn more then i can rite now..
i wish i could reply him..
but i don noe hw to answer him..
no longer he called me..
i cant control the tears in my eyes..
suddenly i could feel there is sum1 out there is caring me..
when i need this person..
he told me alot of things..
advising me wat i could do..
i told him the difficulties im hving..
he understand it..
at last there is sum1 understand wat im thinking..
feeling tat im not alone..
not being left out..
being drop by them
but later im ok...
feel better after saying sumthing hired inside but wishing sum1 understand..
now i should start plan wat i should do the nxt step..
going to work or..
study..
if study..
where should i choose..
if work..
where should i go..
spore or back to genting??
where??
alot to think of..
i wish i could go wit him..
but i cant..
alot of things to decide..
new life wil start..
the most important..
how am i going to tell my parent..
don noe how to let them noe this..
but anyway i feel better after talking wit my frenz..
thanks to all the comfort n advises they gv..
if in my life without u all..
i wonder what could happened to me..
thanks guys n gals..

world full wit love..

wat should i start wit..

erm..

bout wat recently happened to me..

i jz back from genting tis april..

i was working there..

is fun working there..

i was working at genting palace..

an restaurant..

near the casino in genting resort..

after 3 months..

then resign coming back to ipoh, my hometown..

rest a month then work again..

as a wine promoter at a mall..

jaya jusco..

noe nothing about wine at 1st..

but now ok jor lo..

work 4 2 months jor ma..

then now i decided to resign again..

1st i tot coming back to ipoh to wait to enter uni..

but wat happened is tat i unsuccessfully get in..

so appeal..

waiting is wat i can do..

the only things i can do..

the appeal make my life so so bc..

wen i noe tat i wasnt successfully get in..

my whole world was lik destroyed..

then..

lucikly all my frenz were by my side..

they comfort me..

make me feel better..

thanks to all my frenz..

to him too..

ever he din did muc to me..

but all the smile n the msg he sent..

light up my world..

thanks..

even sumtime or everytime..

he trouble me alot..

but i don mind..

cz he is a nice guy..

a guy to protect..

a guy that so careless..

a guy tat need sum1 to backup for him..

haha..

he's a nice, cute guy..

not regret to noe him..

haha..

suddenly go story bout him de..

aiyo..

haha..

pai xie..

pai xie is a word of my fren alwiz use..

wen i jz noe him..

the way we meet..

haha..

but he don ever remember hw we noe each..

bad guy..

heartless..

haha..

but its so funny..

don noe hw to tell ..

haha..

he is a funny guy..

cheer ppl's life..

gentleman..

teach me muc..

sumtime lik little kid..

budak budak de..

but age older then me..

is a helpful guy..

wenever u nd a help..

he is the one..

tis man eat muc muc oso tat skinny de..

don noe wat kind of ppl he is?

haiz..

sum how..

knowing them reli delight my world..

whole world..

wen ever i need them..

there's alwiz them by side..

tats y sumtime don b so pessimistic..

world is full of love..

love doesnt mean by between couples.

but oso among family..

best frenz..

old frenz..

classmate..

anyone..

even is not close..

jz noe each..

the world is full wit hope..

if there's reli no1 there bside u..

jz find me..

im willing to listen to it..

haha..