tats all,,

i reli veli tired..tired with everything..
especially the ppl i work with..
im not sure whether my desicion is correct but at this moment..
i reli don wan to see the face of all the irritating ppl..
i have been thinking veli long time..
but this time i reli have make a move on it..
i have jz finished type my resignation letter..
leaving mandarin doesnt make me wonder 2nd tot other then Rosley and cheryl.
i onli will feel soli to both of them.
cheryl have done so muc for me..
get me promoted jz with my working experince in mandarin for 5months.
rosley is so confident and appreciate the things i have done..
however only both of them know how hard i have done wasnt strong enuff for me to stay..
compare to their stress, mine of cz will not as heavy as their..
however i reli couldnt take it any more..
or mayb should i say..
i doesnt do my job well..
i couldnt hand my task on time or unsuccessfully do it..
but i rlei regret i learn alot from this place..
i learn to b more independance..
no1 you can reli count on..
no1 you can reli trust on..
ppl will not appreciate the things have done..
anyway, i think i reli need a break..
reli tired with the life i have now..
nth reli different then wat i had when i was with absinthe..

nth much i need now

today im off..
going out with cheng and bang almost whole day..
we went to buy something then back mandarin to pass over the stationary i bought..
oso got a full full brunch having buffet japanese food at sakae sushi..
then kar leong came n join us..
we had a veli full full brunch ba..
then cheng wan to buy a coat for her work de..
then the near by shop don hv..
so i suggest at suntec city
so accompany go find the coat then pat came to join..
after that, we accompany pat eat eat lo..
then since is near by oscars..
i went over but all the ppl i noe were not thr anymore..
i jz saw frankie, my loong tai hub..
miss him alot..chat awhile..
then i went home..donnoe y feel lik sms tek seng..
then we decide to meet at the market near by..
jz both of us..^^
during the talk..we talk alot of things..
about hows his work hunting is..
hows his relation between his sister..
how silly his sister..
how kar chuan is..
he got chicken pop now..
he consider whether i had it b4 la..
alot alot..
meet him at 11pm then around 130am..
we go back le..
seriously i reli envy his relation with his sis..
i will nvr had that kind of relation with him..
but from wat he tell me
how his sis done everything to him..
i reli couldnt compare myself with her..
however, i feel glad..
donnoe y.
he said go home then take shower oo..
i rlei do so..
haha..he still the one influence me alot..
but i think i am hapi wat i hv wt him..
simple fren..nth muc then that..
seriously if u wan me to b frank..
i reli donnoe wat my feel to him..
i reli still love him or??
i reli couldnt ans now..
i jz feel good in this way..
but when he tell me his sis will come later..
i rlei don feel good..
however i noe his sis status in his heart i reli cant replace..
i shall jz hapi wit wat i hv now

he is back

today i off i wait at home whole day..
he sms me when he almost reach.
when out fetch him..
but we stay at thr awhile to take dinner.
at 1st plan to take some pineapple fried rice..
but donnoe wat shop we enter..then jz order some ala carte..
we talk abit the past n present..
then we went home..
he stay veli near my place..
but he will move soon as the work place veli far..
anyway, i went home..
as he said will come n look for us later on..
i watch my drama takemy time..
he came..
sit awhile n chat abit..
then he suggest to go sing k..
then reach k box..
need to wait til 10 to get a room..
so we went down to take a drink break..
his sis came with her bf..
chit chat awhile..
seem lik normal as usual..
still couldnt get sometime wat he mean..
however tat might not be important to me..
wats important is how i feel..
he told me this time isnt his vacation..
he come for interview..
i wish he got success.. i believe he could..
the whoel nite we sang k..
but the feeling abit weird..
i donnoe how to said..
plus abit lik how i hate kok leong..but not tat deep..
abit confusing..
wat will happen in the future le?