missing

yesterday i went out with ivoen..
b4 tat i met reeve to get back my hp..
left over at balcony after a drink wt him on sat nite..
went to balcony to visit sean ting..
had a stop at oscars, they were quite bz..
drop by to collect my last month tips..
then meet up wt ivoen at HMV..
we went for a japanese food..
taken alot of kind food..
then she plan to buy a hp as she almost spolit the one she had now..
so we went around to look for a hp model..
around 8plus..ivoen go home n i go to mandarin to meet up cc..
on the way walking wt ivoen..
she told me after i left alot of ppl ask where have i gone..
king wei, melvin chua from pastry oso notice im not thr..
then wat make me susprose was eddie gan..
he asked why cant see me recently..
is it i went on leave..
ha~~
ivoen told him i leave oscars le..
now onli he notice it..
i oledi on leave started new job n might get my paid liao..
tats the way she explain it..
reli feel abit sad tat we became lik tat...
is not regret or feel is my fault..
it wasnt my fault..
i did nth..
mayb cz tat time the other one was too aggressive n scare him of..
so he oso treat me lik tat as well..
honestly i do not hate or guilty of it..
im ready to be fren wt him..jz tat don think tats any possiblity..
but kind of silly to say, one of the reason i leave oscars is him..
is quite suffering for both working in this condition..
he don lik to see me around..
i don feel comfortable wt how he react..
he avoiding wherever im..
so y not i leave le..
after tat..i met up cc at meritus lounge
hv a few drinks wt her while she wait her bf off..
we talked about alot of things..
during conversation we mention alot of things lik..
bang soon to act in a film, eddie, tek seng, our family, cc's bf, her work, how big sis in home..
almost everything..
cc ask me whether i still love tekseng..
i cnat ans tat, wat i noe tat we are comfortable wt how we are now..
we oso chat getting pr in sg, about my work...
she is going back to sarawak wt her bf then on 26th will return to ipoh then 29th back sg..
hemmm..
reli reli reli miss every1, been long time din hug hug cc n ivoen..
alwis hug voen, so comfortable, but doesnt happen anymore..