hateness

hemm..is veli obvious tat he is avoiding me..
doesnt welcome me in his life..
but rite now it reli doenst matter me anymore..
if he wan to cont lik tat..
i cant fixed it if he wanted to cont it..
anyhow i start to lik the stiff without him..
i wont feel stress or i don hv to pretend..
the heart feel sumthing tat i cant descride it..
is not pain or anger..sumthing else..
when im on the way to work today..
i came across a few bus stop..
this feeling came back..
the scare n heart jump fast..
the last time i experinced this is when i saw him early in the morning same bus wit me..
but now he wasnt thr..
but i scare if who's noe mayb we reli in the same bus again..
wat should i do..
after pass the bus stop tat possiblity to meet him..
n he wasnt in..
i feel muc better..
hemm..this idiot..i stil don und wat i hv did tat make him lik tat..