i had a dream

i dreamt him..the 2nd time he appear in my dream..
the 1st time, he was at a corner tat i spot him..
nvr said anything, jz a moment among all the crowd..
this time mostly is me n him onli..
the dream start with me n some fren hving a drink session
he came to joined, n i wasnt aware of his invite thr..
i was very angry n took a taxi went home..
the nxt day, he chase aft me n force to listen to him.
the end he try to prove to me how serious he is..
of cz i cant fight n lose to his hands..
but both of us were got punish as he spoilt many things while to prove to me..
however we are hapily being questions and wait for the punish..

i wake up frm slp.. i could clesrly rmb everything happened in the dream
then i wish wont saw him at work..
but veli fortune, he is the 1st person..
n i keep on seeing him whole day..
try to avoid n listen heard or watever regards him..
he tried to talk to me when he went home..
i cant believe, n i donnoe how to react..
so stupid lo..
of cz i try to avoid..

tats how it is

i haven't

its been more then 1 month almost near to 2 months..
things been running in my brain everyday n guessing the meaning behind it..
i tot i could get over it easily then previous same incident..
din noe it will end up lik now..
aft the 'SAM' incident, i had one angry depress week..
til i cut my hair short which help me a lil..
then took a week to think how i wan the thing goes..
it was uncomfortable between the time i had b4 i went back msia for a week
i took alot of encourage to send him msg
asking him to react normal in front of me and wish to return back b4 the incident happened
he did not reply me..
i start feel ignore when i got to noe everything about him thru bout ppl
why have to b lik this??
when i heard it, shall i feel great or irritate??
day by day passed, i found i start to hate listening bout any news regards u..
i don find it interesting anymore
as the story thr does not include me
im pretty confuse the way he respond when i was away
i heard everything bout mentioning my name out of sudden..
if our relation cant start then i hope he could stop gving this kind of joke around
tats reli not funny, it make me feel worst..
'TEK SENG' took almost 4 years to reli let everything go n back to normal..
aft all the hope n care he gvn to me..
n tell myself, 'SAM' will onli take ever less as he nvr gv any hope n care of me
btw i hv knew im not the piece of cake he prefer.
i reli wish i could forget or get over it as soon as i could
n live normally, but it does not allow me
thr's alwis some1 remind me of him n the 'SAM' incident..
to those who reli wish i could live better then now,
they should stop mention his name or recall back all the memories i had with him..
i don ever wan to hear his name any more..