4th april

yesterday was hin leong's bday..
i do chat wt him awhile today..
i was same shift wt leong yesterday..
still the same he don look at me..
he don smile at me..
when i enter to canteen, he was sitiing wt his frenz..
i believe he saw me n he left..
but i make a move n sms him..
whether he hate to see me??
wat i received is he said im the one hate to see him..
is not hate is scare,
he look so fierce, the 1st nite when working mid wt him..
he reli scare me..
summore i don wish he hv second tot of us..
jz wish to cont be fren wt him onli..
but he seem don und tat..
he call me dear..
he's so sturborn keep mention the name..
do i make a wrong move?
as i should keep things the same way..

reeve as well..
i feel so soli to reeve..
i feel i treat him so bad..
misuse him..
but he seem nvr angry bout tat..
sumtime he oso advised me..
recently scare to get close to him..
as elbert n geo will make fun of us in front of me..
i don wan gv any hope or misunderstand to any1..
as i oso donnoe wat i wan n feel so..
donwan to be unfair..
i sms reeve as well yesterday, telling him im soli to him..
he ask whether im mad, asking am i irritating to him..
he still could joke wt me..
i reli donnoe wat i could do then saying soli to every1..